Hush Little Baby [VMinKook]

75

Deep End - Ruelle

There's not a day that has passed that Jeongguk doesn't spend his time alone these days.

Like literally alone.

Jimin is usually out with Joshua - or so he says. Taehyung has been leaving at seven in the night and coming back by the time sunrises. Their once somewhat forming friendship isn't how it use to be anymore. If anything it feels as though they're just what they are; strangers that are forced together because they're under the same circumstance.

And it sucks.

Especially for Jeongguk.

He thought he was okay, he really did. With the whole kidnapping thing, he didn't think it affected him as one would assume. They just beat him up while he was blindfolded, left to starve and wasn't given a drop of water.

Jeongguk really thought he was okay.

But he's has...... Nightmares about it.

That those people are going to kill him as they said they would. Will slaughter Lalisa in front of him as they taunted about to him. Mocking how next it will be Jimin or Taehyung if he kept fucking screaming.

Waking up sucks because he gets this insufferable pain all over his body, feeling as though he's in a fucking inferno with this skin overheating and heart racing as though he might just vomit it out.

Jeongguk thought it was normal, you know, since he did get kidnapped. But after what happened with the whole Jimin thing and seeing how things are now between the three of them, he feels as though he's in this cage. Alone. With no one there to even tell him what the fuck is going on with him.

He would talk to Yeosang, but the kid has already a life complicated of shit on his shoulders to be hearing of Jeongguk's issues. Woosung is a no go for obvious reasons and Hoseok - He doesn't know shit about what's going on so that can't happen.

So, with this reality that he has no one to talk to, since Jimin and Taehyung are barely around, Jeongguk has decided to just keep it bottled up. Maybe it isn't as important as he feels it is and when it's over, he'll be okay.

It'll come to pass, eventually.

Whatever, it's not that important either way.

That's all Jeongguk tried to tell himself when he recently startled awake from another nightmare, facing his panic attack alone since it's midnight and no one is here - not like it would've been any different if someone was here. It was hard though, since he felt as though he was dying. But after sitting it out after a while, telling himself it isn't important, he pushed himself to get up and just shower then go to the kitchen to make himself some tea.

Lalisa use to make him tea whenever he had nightmares.

The tea he made wasn't like hers but well, it'll do at least.

It still wasn't easy to fall back asleep, especially after his nightmare. Still being here alone, Jeongguk began to unwillingly sink in deeper and deeper into his thoughts. He didn't want to, and he didn't understand why he began to remember those moments where he was alone and kidnapped.

Would it be because that's how he feels now? Alone.... And maybe is kidnapped?

No, this is nothing like how it was when he was kidnapped, yet he felt that same suffocation in his throat whenever he would take a sip of his tea as that trapped feeling overcame his senses and better conscious. His hand was shaking and his breathing began to mellow unevenly.