i hate you, i love you || a natsuri fanfiction

~2~

!!TW!! BLOOD, (possibly) MENTAL ABUSE, A "KNIFE", SUICIDE, STRONG LANGUAGE, OVERTHINKING

i realize my whole face turning red while natsuki is holding my hand

"please, i don't wanna be alone again..." she says while slowly sitting on the curb

i sat down with her, while still holding hands. "i just.. feel like everyone leaves.. towards the end, you know..?"

"natsuki i-" 

she interrupts me by saying, "so i... jeez i can't believe i'm saying this.. i joined the literature club to.. make friends... i swear to god, if you tell anyone about this i'm gonna-"

"i relate to that," i say

"wh-what...?"

"i joined for the same reason you did... to.. to make friends..."

natsuki didn't say anything, she just looked deep into my violet purple like eyes

"sorry if i'm not good at this... i've.. never really opened up before..." i say while turning around

natsuki puts her hands on mine, i had no other choice but to look back at her

"look yuri, i.. never really was a huge fan of you at the start... but now that i know you... i feel.. more comfortable around you, even though we fight sometimes.. the things you say to me, it sort of reminds me of my..." natsuki couldn't finish her sentence, so she just looks down at the ground

"what's wrong?" i ask

"it's... it's nothing, don't worry.."

"what do i remind you of?"

"it's NOTHING, OK?" natsuki said while raising her voice at me. i didn't really have any choice but to flinch and put my hands to my mouth like a little baby would

"oh... ok, i see," i explained, "i'm gonna go home, if you go back to the club room, tell monika i had homework to do..."

i then realized that i had to get my backpack from the literature room, so i started walking inside.

"where are you going?" natsuki asked with a sour attitude

"i'm going.. to the bathroom..." 

as you know i didn't have to go to the bathroom, obviously. i quickly ran to the literature room, got my things, and ran back out with my arm over the bottom part of my face

"yuri are you-" 

SLAM, the the loud door cuts off sayori from what she's trying to say

i quickly run away from the school with my forest green backpack on my back and notice that natsuki isn't on the curb anymore. "i wonder if she went home," i thought

i run back to where i saw natsuki last to look around for her, just to she her sobbing behind a gray car

"leave me alone," she says

i stand there, still looking at her

"i said, leave me ALONE," natsuki screams while turning around to push me onto the concrete causing me to have my right knee start bleeding and my elbows scraped 

i had no other choice but to run away, crying, with blood running down my knee

"i never should've trusted her..."

"i hate you" a voice said to me in a voice like natsuki's

it keeps on repeating

"i hate you"