i hate you, i love you || a natsuri fanfiction

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TW, MENTION/PHYSICAL SUICIDE, STRONG LANGUAGE, DEPRESSION, MENTION OF DEATH, MENTAL/PHYSICAL ABUSE

"WAIT DON'T-" she rolls up the rest of my sleeve before i can stop her

"w-w-wai-wait.. n-n-no... th-t-thi-this isn't r-re-real... r-right?... why am i so sweaty... why am i losing vision..i can't.."

natsuki faints into my lap. i feel my entire face turn red while my hands hold natsuki from falling down and banging her head on the ground

i put her head on a pillow so then i can get an ice pack from the fridge for her head

"hm, seems like her dad doesn't have any ice packs..." i think, so i just take a paper towel and wet it with cold water

a few minutes later

"h-huh, what h-h-happened..?" natsuki asks while sitting up

"you uh.. you fainted for about 3 minutes," i explain, "so i tried to find an ice pack, but you didn't have any, so i-"

"thank you, yuri," natsuki smiles and hugs me tight

i can't help but hug her back and say, "no problem, natsuki,"

we hug for maybe 3 or 4 minutes

"hey natsuki, can we do this again...?"

it goes quiet.

i feel natsuki breathing on me, except, she isn't talking

i feel her grip around me weakening and hear her quiet breathing

she must've fallen asleep on my lap

...

...

...

wait a second

...

SHE FELL ASLEEP ON MY LAP-

do i really have any other choice but to lay down and fall asleep too..? maybe... yes?

yes, i'm gonna fall asleep

NATSUKI'S POV, ABOUT 50 MINUTES OR AN HOUR LATER

i slowly wake up

for some reason, i find myself laying on something that's moving

it's yuri

i want to get up, but i don't want to

yuri... she's so warm.. and cozy, it feels... nice

wait am i... in love with.. yuri..?

i'm.. i'm in love with yuri...

part of me wants to get off of yuri's lap and get food

the other part of me doesn't

but a small part of me wants to... kiss yuri on the cheek..?

...

....

yes... part of me wants to kiss yuri on the cheek

i slowly, and carefully lean up to yuri's face

"oh god i can't believe i'm doing this," i think while looking away from yuri

i lean down slowly and give yuri a little peck on her cheek

i can see yuri, about to open her eyes, but i can't move