Best Friends

Chapter 11

"She okay?" Luke asked and Silas shrugged.

"She thinks she isn't enough for us," Silas said looking out the window to see her swinging softly on the tire swing. "She is scared."

"Can you blame her?" Sean asked. "It happened without her knowing or having any control over it. Then we tell her we all want to share her. She also has Scott to worry about. I honestly wouldn't be surprise if she slips without control again. How was she feeling?"

"She has a headache," Silas said and Sean nodded.

"Hey Pookie," Sean said as he walked up on her and started gently pushing her on the swing.

"Hi Sean," she whispered not looking at him.

"Are you still having a headache?" he asked and she nodded. "Why don't you come inside and take some medicine?"

"I don't know if I can," She said staring at the creek that ran across their backyard.

"Can what?" he asked knowing she wasn't talking about taking medicine.

"Be enough for you," she whispered so low he almost missed it. "I am so messed up."

"Hey Pookie," Sean asked walking around and kneeling in front of her. "Can I ask you something?"

"Of course," She nodded looking at their hands. She didn't know when he took ahold of her hands but yet he was.

"Can you imagine life without us? Five years from now? Ten? Can you see a future without all of us?" he asked and she tensed up.

She thought about it, "No," She answered honestly. "But can you honestly say I will be able to make fourteen of you happy and how exactly will this sharing thing work?"

"Oh Pookie, you already make us happy just the way you are" he smiled. "Don't over think things Pookie, just take it one day at a time. Just trust us and let us show you how you are supposed to be treated. Can you try?"

"What if it doesn't work out?" She asked scared. "What if I can't be enough for all of you and I lose my best friends? What if I come between all of you?"

"What if you are exactly what we need and you make us so much happier?" Sean asked. "What if you are our Queen? We don't know what the future holds but don't you think it's worth the risk to try and find out? Even if you aren't you wont lose us Pookie. We will still be your best friends no matter what. But I truly think you are the Queen for us."

"I just don't understand how it will work," She sighed and he smiled.

"We just keep doing what we are doing now and it will all work out like it is suppose to," Sean said pulling her back to start swinging again. "We won't rush you Pookie, we will take it at your pace. We just want to be with you, that's all."

"But what about Scott?" She asked scared.

"Owen is already taking care of him," Sean said softly. "He has already called the sheriff and some other people. He is looking into all the ways we can get him for abuse and anything else he can think of. Try and not think about him Pookie, let us take care of all your worry and fears."

"I will try," She sighed. "That's all I can do."

"That is all we ask for," Sean said stopping the swing. "Now how about we go inside and get some medicine for your headache."

"Okay," she said getting out of the tire. He gently led her to her room and made her lay down. He handed her the medicine and put a cool washcloth over her eyes.
"Can I try something Pookie?" he asked gently.

"What?" she asked timidly.

"Take this," he said as he gently rubbed the pacifier against her lips. "Just trust us." She opened her mouth and he slipped the pacifier into her mouth. She messed with it for a little bit then started sucking it like she was supposed to. "Such a good girl," he said softly. "Just let your mind relax Pookie." She whimpered and Sean handed her the Spyro dragon. She calmed down and he smiled. "Such a good girl."

She realized that she liked the way he was talking to her and she really liked the warmth that came over her when he said she was a good girl. She wanted to feel like that all the time but she was scared that her problems would become too much for them. She didn't want to lose them, she honestly didn't know if she would be able to survive without them in her life. She felt him start to get up so she reached out and grabbed his hand. She pulled on it and smiled softly when she felt him lay down beside her and wrap his hand around her stomach.

"Okay Pookie, I'll stay with you while you rest," he chuckled against her neck. "Such a needy girl, we love it. Such a good girl." She smiled before drifting off to sleep.