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Tyler

16.01.15

3:40 p.m.

The door opens and I storm out of the house, about to break down into tears. I dig out for my keys as fast as I can and get into my car and sit there. I start to cry. I cry as loud as I can, until I saw a face coming out of the door. I then start up my car quickly and drive home.

5:30 p.m.

I walk through the door and see my mom standing in the kitchen. I glance over to her and she looks over to me, smiling. Why is she home early?

"Hi honey! How was-"

"Shut the fuck up, Jackie. I'm not in the fucking mood," I say, wiping away some tears. I walk fast towards my room and slam the door shut. The door opens a few minutes later.

"Are you okay?" My mom asks. I look up with her with tears staining my glasses and face.

"Does it look like I'm fucking okay, mom? Does it?" I gave her a few seconds to answer. She just stares at me with her mouth shaped in a small 'o'. "No, it doesn't. That is your answer. The correct answer." I shove my face into a pillow. I feel her hand on my back and I turn to face her face. She was staring at me.

"What's the matter? Tell me everything. Didn't you say you went to Troye's? What did he do?"

I hesitated. I didn't want to say it. I didn't want to admit it. I didn't want those words coming out of my mouth. But I said it anyways.

"T-Troye, I think, kissed a girl. I-I think he's got a girl-"

"WHAT!" She says in a high-pitched sort of squeal. I look up at her and see her storm out of the room. Then, my phone starts to ring. I check the caller ID number. It was Sage. I answer it.

"What the fuck do you want?"

"No need to be rude. I was just wondering if you're okay. I saw you parked in front of our house, crying. I was walking home from school and I saw you sitting in your car, alone, crying. Then, I saw a girl walk out of the house and you drove away. What happened? Who was that girl? I've asked Troye who it was earlier and he ignored me. Also, do you know if Troye is okay?"

"The girl is, I guess, Kyla. I think... I think she's dating Troye-"

"WHAT! HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE!" She screams into the phone. "How do you know this?"

"I wanted to know if Troye was okay. If he was sick or something. So I knocked on your door and no one answered. So I opened it since it was open. And I heard a girl's voice... Then I heard Troye and they exchanged 'I love you's'. Sage, what if he changes completely?"

"Tyler, that won't happen. Just-Just trust me. I'm gonna go. Bye," and she hangs up. I throw my phone across my room and start to cry again. I then lie down on my bed while facing the ceiling. I was sad that he was dating a girl.

A girl.

I didn't want that to happen. If they are real, then I might just die inside. Or die in all. I never wanted to see him date a girl. I never expected him to. When I first met him, I was looking at him. I knew he was gay. From the start. It was pretty obvious with the woman's platform converse. It looked good on him, to be honest.

But seriously, a girl? At least a transgender. Or a bisexual girl. Because I can't believe that he's dating someone the opposite sex. But why? I wouldn't think he would forget his sexuality. Is his gut telling him to love her? Or is he being told that he's gay and that isn't right? Because it's not right.

My mom then walks into my room. I see tears in her eyes. Why was she crying? She took her hand and rubbed one eye and then finally walked over to me and smiled. She sat down next to me on my bed and took my hand in hers.