Love that Hurts

AND DOWN I GO

Khali hai dil
Unche Makan

"What?", Joey was awestruck at her casual disclosure of the fact that she had agreed to go out with her ex-husband, one who had discarded her as one does with common trash. He was disappointed in her. Her had seen her build herself up again, gathering bits and pieces of confidence little by little to live a normal life away from the taunts and abuse of her ex-husband. She had taken so much to rebuild herself and so easily was she going to present herself up again to be broken down.

Raina didn't know what to say, she knew the look of disappointment and hurt that flashed through Joey's eyes as her words hit him. Truth be told, she was disappointed in herself. She was setting herself up to be royally fucked all over again.

"You are not gonna say something?", Ashi questioned, waiting to be reprimanded for her stupid actions.

"I'm just disappointed.", with that he turned around.

Raina was letting herself down, she knew that. How dumb could one be to go knowingly put ones feet in bear trap again? All is she knew, she was.

Raina straightened her posture and headed towards Aryan's house.

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Aryan was pouring himself a bourbon when somebody rang the doorbell of his suite. He begrudgingly went to answer it only to be faced with a nervous Ashi. He smiled softly and let her in.

"Have a seat."

"I'm not here to sit."

"Okay. What are you here to do then?", he slowly moved towards Raina as she backed up.

"I'm here to tell you I can't do it."

"Do what, honey?", he backed Raina up against a glass wall. He moved his face closer to hers, his lips slowly making way to hers.

"This. Us going out.", Raina turned her face.

"We dont have to go out. We can I mean get married.", his hands caressed her cheeks.

"You know what I mean.", Raina spat.

"Do you know what you are putting yourself in?"

"You can't just blackmail me into doing things."

"Honey, you are making this so much harder than it already is."

"No you are. I have moved on, I don't lov-"

"Don't!", Aryan roared. "Don't say it."

"We dont love each other, we never did."

Aryan was as close to Raina as he could be,"I Love you, Raina."

This confession hit her like a thunderbolt, she didn't know how to react to this sudden declaration of love. She let out a bitter laugh.

"Its not love. What you feel for me is infatuation, lust. Nothing more."

Aryan couldnt believe what he had just heard. Raina had insulted his love for her, it was not any stupid school romance.

"I LOVE YOU, Raina. You can call it anything you want, but for me it is love. What I feel for you is love. "

"I don't want anything to do with your feelings, I don't care what you feel for me. I just don't want to see you ever again. Never again. "

Raina turned around to leave, when Aryan held her from behind, " I want everything to do with you. Everything."

"Leave me, this instant!"

"Okay.", Aryan left her waist and Raina began to walk towards the door when his voice boomed again. "Walk out of here and I'll ruin everyone you hold dear. Everything that you consider to be close will forever be ruined. Now would you want that?"

"You-"

"Dont you dare think I'd let you off the hook easily this time, I'll personally deliver the news of our separation to your dad if thats what it takes for you to take me seriously."

"You cant do this to me."

"I already am. And about us going out and giving it a try? We wouldn't need it anymore since we are going back to India and we will get married there. One word of protest and you will know its cost."

Aryan slightly tilted her chin up using the tip of his index finger ,"We could've done it the easy way but you had to make into the bad guy sweetheart."

"You would be pushing me further away."

"Now, now which marriage doesnt have hardships? We will overcome it soon."

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Aryan and Raina were on a private chartered plane on their way back to India, he took a seat beside her and held her hand tight while traveling amongst the clouds. Aryan was looking at her side profile, it was so warm and affectionate. He had failed to notice what warmth she held and it felt to be holding her. He moved her hair out of her face.

"Don't.", said Raina monotonously. In response to this Aryan, grabbed her hand even tighter and rested his head on her shoulder. It was going to be a long flight ahead.

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PRECAP

"Come here!", he jerked her hand only for Raina to land on his lap. Raina tried to move but Aryan held her waist and positioned her so that she couldnt get home. She could feel her heart thumping loudly against her chest.