Love that Hurts

LOCO

Aryan slowly got off her, sat on the edge of their bed and buried his face in his hands in shame. Raina was just laying there, her motion had come to a standstill, recovering from the fact of what he was about to do. She was slowly trying to get up when he caught a hold of her feet, he lowered his head to her feet and cried into them, all the while mumbling incoherent words.

"Let go of my feet, don't do this. ", Raina said, monotonously, she knew this would be a cycle. He would wrong her, cry, beg for forgiveness and then back to square one with harming her. That is the course of action for people like Aryan.

He touched his head to her head, as a sign of repentance and said, "I am sorry Raina, I am not gonna make up excuses for what I was about to do. But I couldn't control myself when the thought of you leaving me came to mind, I can't bear to loose you once again."

Raina maintained her silence as Aryan slowly lifted his head and started caressing her head, to which she flinched. It broke him to see her getting disgusted by his touch. Aryan slowly came close to her face and said, "I will do anything to keep you with me, anything. I will tear the world apart, if that's what it takes for us to be together. This is meant to be, if not, I'll make it to be. Because you are mine, for all eternity. "

His declaration came off as a threat to Raina, like he was warning her to not step out of line, like anyone who would try to take her away from him would pay dearly, even if it was Raina herself.

She looked him in the eye, with the most disgusted expression she could come up with and uttered, "You are a pathetic man Aryan. Pathetic. When I wanted to actually be with you, when I was ready to love you, you treated me like I was a maggot, like a leech sucking off of you. You called me names, treated me less than a human being, let alone a wife. You slept, kissed, went out with your mistress in front of my eyes and then when I asked you to give me a sliver of respect you called me unworthy. What is it about me now? What makes me worthy now? You know what, I don't care if I was unworthy for you, to be worthy of a manwhore like you would be an insult in itself. Nothing can ever make me love you, not after what you did to me, before and today. If you can chain me up, starve me, force me to utter those three words for you but i will never feel love for you. Never. Because I see you for who you are, that is a hollow and pathetic man. "

Raina snatched her feet away from his grip and headed to the bathroom to rub his touch off. She rubbed away at those parts where he had touched her till they turned red. She put on her clothes after a bath and got out of the bathroom, only to be horrified at what lay infront of her eyes. Aryan sat there, with innumerable cuts on his both palms, blood oozing out of them. As he heard Raina, he looked at her and smiled as he lifted his hands to show her what he had done to them.

"I hurt you with these disgusting hands right, well they got what they deserved. ", tears were slipping down his cheeks in a constant flow. Raina was disturbed by what lay ahead of her, this man, was not in a healthy state of mind. He was acting crazy or did he just to do that guilt trip her into forgiving him. As much as Raina wanted to see him suffer, see every bit of blood ooze out of his body till he was pale and blue and lifeless, she couldn't bring herself to be that cruel, to anybody. She wasn't him, would never be him.

Raina slowly brought out the first aid box and sat near him, maintaining a safe distance. She poured antiseptic on the cotton and began cleaning the little cuts as he hissed in response. She pushed the cotton a little more into his skin when he shrieked.

"Be gentle. ", she just glared at him.

She applied a generic topical cream on both his hands and then tied bandage around them to prevent them from further infection.

" As much as you say you hate me, you don't. You still love me, why else would you do this? ", Aryan asked as Raina had turned her back on him.

" I would've done this for anybody. I'm not like you, I don't enjoy watching others in pain. ", with that Aryan slowly pushed himself closer to her and hugged her from behind.

Raina felt anger building up in her. How dare he! How dare he invade her personal space just moments after trying to force himself on her!

" Get your hands off me, warna is bar main khud tumhare haath kay dungi. "
(Get your hands off me, or this time I'll be the one to cut your hands off)

Aryan slowly released her from his grip, not before pecking her head and smelling her hair. As Aryan left the bedroom, Raina indulged herself in deep thoughts. Aryan's behavior was starting to irk her even more, what he did that day was more than just love for her, the look on his face as he showed her his palms, he looked psychotic, maniacal. And how quick he turned from harming himself to being all loving towards her. He wasn't being normal.