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THOMAS POV

Dauntless life wasn't that difficult to get used to, pretty similar to how we lived in the Glade. However, that didn't stop me from missing the Glade. And Dylan and Lynn as well. It seemed that they had gone along with the same trend of using our past names.

I missed the Glade. Alot. The Runners going out every morning, coming back every night, the Box coming up every month, bringing a new Greenie along. Missed all the talks we had at the Homestead. The sorrow when we had to bury someone at the Deadheads.

I had, of course, made new friends, but keeping my old ones. But strangely enough, Jen was drawing away from me. Not only me, everyone else. She spent most of her free hours alone, and didn't talk much.

I decided to enter her head. Jen? You there? But I didn't feel the connection I used to when I connected with her. She had blocked me. Created a wall around her, preventing me from getting in.

I tried getting to Aeden. Hey. Something's wrong. Jen has been... He interrupted me mid-sentence. Yeah I know. I tried getting to her, but she blocked me.

The same happened here. I think I'll try talking to her personally.

Good that.

I found her in her room, reading silently on her bed. The door was open, so I didn't bother to knock. "Go away Thomas." She snapped. "Jen. I'm not going until you tell me what's going on. Why aren't you talking to me anymore?"

"Go. Away. Didn't you hear me? GO AWAY!" She yelled, spitting at my face. Hurt. Felt like a direct blow to my heart. Hit me like a tsunami wave. Hurt. But I wasn't giving up that easily.

Instead of leaving, I grabbed her shoulders. Hard. "I'm not giving up on you. Not since...well let's just say I'm not ready to lose another. So please. Tell me. And why are you wearing long sleeves anyway? It's scorching hot."

I reached out to roll up her sleeves, but she refused. Violently, I might add.

"Promise me first, Thomas. Promise you won't tell anyone. Only Aeden. ONLY." I stared into her crystal blue eyes, and nodded.

"Well..."

She slowly grabbed her sleeve with one hand, and put another into her pocket. And from her pocket, she pulled out a knife. The blade stained with blood. It was a normal Dauntless knife, given to newbies when they first join Dauntless. And she pulled up her sleeve, revealing the horrifying truth.

Scars. The whole way up her wrist.

"Why..." A tear made its way out. Why would such an innocent girl cut herself? "Why? Why Jen, WHY? TELL ME!" Tears were continuously rolling down, and I could see that she was crying as well.

"I don't know Thomas. Okay? I don't know. These memories, from the past, they keep coming back, and it's torture. Making you go through all the klunk again, making you remember that you went through these bloody things. As if it's reminding me." Her head fell onto my shoulders, and I couldn't think of anything to say as her body was racked with sobs.

I patted her on the back, and whispered comforting words. She calmed down after a while, and I took her hand, dragging her down for dinner.

Soon, I found her with Arianne and a few other girls, talking and laughing happily. Aeden flashed me a thumbs-up, and I smiled back. He came over, and asked what happened.

"Aeden...I can't tell you without you promising. That you will not EVER tell anyone. No one shall know about this." "Yes, yes. Chill, shank. I ain't telling no one about this. She's my friend too you know?"

"She has depression." That word gave me a feeling that I never had reason to feel before. Protectiveness. Not as in care, but literal protectiveness, like she was insecure. And it made me feel like a leader, a guardian.

I would pick her up when she fell, piece her back if she ever fell apart, and willingly give my life for her. For once, I felt love.
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Okay. The ending sorta sucked. But well, hope you liked the update. Two updates in a day?! Pretty impressive, considering my normal writing speed, I can't even make it to two updates a week! Well yea.
~fangirl_spirit