The Dusk Calls For Me: Jasper Hale x Fleur Swan.

Digging up the past.

"I can see you clear as yesterday
Top down, fingers in the breeze
Weavin' through the lights in the sky
You said, "Baby close your eyes"
And I prayed we would all always
Hold on to this feeling, stronger, faster
Faster."

Kwamie Liv, Angel Haze: Pleasure This Pain.

I couldn't remember much of the ride to the airport, nor did I remember much of the plane ride. I was in shock, paralyzed with worry and fear. Not for me per-say but, My dad, the Cullens, they were all at risk. I couldn't stand the fact that any of them would be killed because of me. I wished my dreams could've predicted this, that I had somehow acquired the ability to see the future as Alice did. I could only predict death it seems... I hadn't dreamed of anyone getting killed. Maybe it was a good sign, we would be fine. Yes, I would convince myself that... I hadn't dreamed of anyone dying, we would be fine.

The only thing I could remember was Bella constantly calling mom, she wouldn't talk to me or look at me. I felt the same tension I always felt when I was around her a few months ago. I was livid with her, not one call to dad... not one. She clearly didn't give a damn about his safety either, she was ready to abandon him. Throw him into the wolves to save herself... that selfish side to her had never left it seems. I pulled out my phone again, texting dad.

"Made it to Phoenix, we're safe... getting a ride to a hotel now. I haven't changed her mind yet. I love you and miss you."

I read the text again, wishing the contents of it were true. I wanted to be safe, I wanted to be back home. I wish I was sitting across from dad in the diner talking amongst ourselves. I wish I was driving down the forest going to see the Cullens. I wanted to attempt to beat Alice at chess, to joke around with Emmett and Dean. To have the heart to hearts with Esme who was more of a mother to me than Renee had ever been. I wanted to be with Jasper, wrapped in each other's arms doing random things together. But, I had to come back to reality... I might not be able to do those things... ever again.

The hotel looked nice and comfortable but I couldn't stand the heat of Arizona. It was sickening, the hot air struggled to get into my lungs. The rainy weather of Forks sounded wonderful right now. Dean and Alice got us a hotel room and eagerly brought us up to it. I had a feeling they thought we would be fully safe in there. I put my bag down at the side of my bed and clasped it on it, my exhaustion was setting in. Bella had sat on the one next to me and signed. She sounded annoyed to me.

"I didn't want to come here, I wanted to be with Edward."

I lifted my head and stared at her... I wasn't going to snap... maybe she was just scared and was lashing out at people... yeah that was it.

"I'm really sorry this is happening Bella, It must be really hard to be away from Edward."

"Yeah, it is! If you hadn't said anything..."

"Look this isn't either of our faults. If we're going to get pissed at anyone, it's James."

Bella looked at me, she knew I was right... I could see it in her face. But, she couldn't admit it right now and just scoffed and went into the lounge area of the hotel room. She was making this more difficult, I wanted to snap at her just as much as she was angry with me. We're falling back into the dark hole of resentment, it was suffocating.

"Fleur? Could you come in here for a second?" Alice asked

I groaned slowly raising myself up from the bed, I went into the lounge room, Alice and Dean looked at me sympathetically.

"How ya holding up?" Dean asked.

"I've been better."

"Look, you're going to be okay," Alice said.