From the start

Chapter 10

He nodded his head and held onto me for support. We headed upstairs into my room and I sat him down on my bed. "Give me the keys." I said and held out my hand. He hesitated and then put them in my hands. I made sure he wasn't looking before I hid the keys.

I've never felt more stressed out. I splashed Grayson's face with some water, and cleaned up his cut. It was 6:30 and I was tired.

My face was red and my eyes were puffy. I didn't know what to do. Was I supposed to just forget everything and pretend I was happy? Or ignore everyone and cry myself to sleep every night.

I took off Grayson's shirt, and threw it on the floor. I knew I couldn't let him sleep like that, besides it was bad luck to sleep in your clothes. Grayson was already passed out. I rested my head on his chest and wrapped my arm around his neck, falling asleep.

I woke up the next morning at 6. I think that was the longest I've ever slept. Grayson was sitting on the edge of his bed holding onto his head. He was sober. "Grayson?" I asked rubbing my eyes.

He turned around. Looking startled. "Oh, I didn't know you were up." He said and sat up. "Do you know where my car keys are?" He looked around the room and then back at me. "Uh, yeah." I sat up and grabbed them from the back of my drawer. "Thanks, I'm sorry about last night." He put his shirt back on and then opened my room door.

I thought about Nash, and what he said about Grayson. "Grayson, before you go. Can we talk? I asked hoping he was up for it. "Sure." He closed the door and sat back down on the bed.

"Do you regret cheating on me?" I asked hoping the answer was yes. "Of course I do. I messed up, like seriously messed up. And because of that stupid mistake, I lost an awesome girl." I felt my heart sink with the question I was about to ask him. "Then why did you." He looked at me plainly. Thinking carefully about an answer.

"I'm not gonna say I wasn't thinking straight, or because I was forced to. I did it because I wanted to." I felt like I was just stabbed 6 times in the heart. He clearly didn't think carefully about his answer. "I was alone, with Kaitlyn. We were talking. She said she's tired of Nash and I said I missed her. We talked about our relationship. I knew I still love her. And I missed her so much. I told her I did. She smiled and I kissed her. She pulled away and said 'what about Nash, what about Britney? She's a great girl' I told her I didn't care and I started making out with her. She didn't kiss back at first until she finally gave in. That's when Nash walked in. He broke up with Kaitlyn and walked out. At that point she didn't care anymore and we started making out again. I was gonna break up with you. It wasn't until I lost you that I realized what I did. I hurt you, and I was sorry."

I felt tears in my eyes. But I held them back. I wasn't gonna cry, not for him, not anymore! I just had one question left. "Who do you want to be with?" My heart raced as I waited for a response.

"I liked you. But I want to be with her. Yesterday, was a mistake, I was drunk, and it was a bet. I don't have any feelings for you. At all." His words sounded so harsh. "I'm sor-" "Just go! Ok? I don't want to be with you either. I just wanted to make sure you would leave me alone. Keep me out of your bets! Just leave me alone for ever!" I yelled and pushed him out my door. I slammed it shut and laid back down on my bed.