Revisit

Time moves on

Trinitys POV

Today is my fourteenth birthday, but it doesn't truly matter. I hardly cared for much over the last two years. Fights happened occasionally and then Tony and Tessa would yell at me. To which I'd return the favor I mean don't get me wrong. They might be family and the authority figure for me right now. Tessa acts too much like she's my mom and Tony isn't often around. I don't mind too much, but Tessa does.

She can be overly annoying in my option. She grounded me once again, but that doesn't
usually stop me. After that last fight two years ago that broke my record of good behavior. Yea I went down hill some more but it didn't matter to me. Tessa wasn't sending me home any time soon so who cared. Was I acting out because I wanted to go home to my family. Partly, but most of it was because the beast inside is growing. It's getting closer to the surface day by day.

Month by month and year by year that's for sure. I've talked to Jacob sometimes and billy along with the guys. Paul hasn't talked to me once he turned fifteen. So I returned the favor and we'll went of a deep end. I guess I always had a crush on Paul, which is why it hurt. When he began to ignore me I thought maybe he was just busy. Then I tried Jared he also began to ignore me little by little. So now I shut everyone out, I hardly talk to Jake.

Dad is alright still don't often call and no embry or quill. I remember Leah and I talk to her because she hadn't ignored me. She gives me updates on what's going on around town. Like how her and sam broke up a year or so ago. All because sam found another girl, but she didn't understand. Did I hate sam for what he did to my best friend of course I did. I still sort of hate him, but I can't change things can I. No all I can do is let the rage out somehow. Sometimes I punch the wall, maybe a kid it all depends.

Call

"Hey muffin" i said

"Hey bubbles" leah responded

"How's things going with everyone at home?" I asked while looking out my window

"It's alright, Jake seems sad because you should really call him, Jared and Paul have been off with sam for god only knows why, embry and quill hang with Jacob and Seth is still young as ever" she laughed at the last part

"Why has sam so suddenly became the best thing in the world?" I growled out

"I don't know, but it pisses me off" she says

"Yea I'm sorry he did this to you" I said

"Hey I got to go, but you should call Jake he misses you" she said

End of call

Did I want to call Jake of course I did, but was I going to. Probably not, I wanted to talk to Paul, but he wouldn't answer. I've broken two phones already this year so I can't brake this one. I don't know I just got so angry and somehow crushed it.

Call

"Pick up the damn phone laohte" I snapped

........ "please leave a message after the beep" it said

"PAUL LAHOTE IF YOU DONT ANSWER THE DAMN PHONE I WILL HATE YOU FOREVER MORE THEN I ALREADY DO, I need you Paul I don't know what's happening to me, but I'm just so angry and you won't answer me like you promised, I hate you right now" I said and hung up

I let the tears fall and just stared at the old picture of me and him.
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Paul's POV

Ring....ring....ring

"You gonna let that ring every damn time?" Jared growled

Beeeeep

"PAUL LAHOTE IF YOU DONT ANSWER THE DAMN PHONE I WOLL HATE YOU FOREVER MORE THEN I ALREADY DO, I need you Paul I don't know what's happening to me, but I'm just so angry and you won't answer me like you promised, I hate you right now" Trinity yelled then sounded like she was about to cry

I haven't responded for reasons, I get she hates me. Of course that hurts me to hear, but I don't know what to say.

"Dude she trusted you, hell she trusted all of us and I heard Jake say she hardly calls anyone anymore, but it seems she's tried you multiple times" Jared said

"I can't talk to her" I said

"Why not, it's not like it's gonna kill you to pick up the phone" jared said

"Because I don't know what to fucking tell her Jared" I growled and stormed off
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The next day

Trinitys POV

I must have cried myself to sleep this time around. I have always felt a bond with Paul so when he began to ignore me. That's why it really hurt me, I noticed my phone started buzzing. It was Jacob, but I just stared at the phone and let it go to voicemail.

"Hey trinity, I know you might be busy, but I was hoping to get to talk with you there's a lot going on and I wanted to speak with you, please call me when you can, I love you bye" it said

After that day of sending Paul the message that I hate him. I stopped calling anyone after that. Time moved on and I just became angrier. I don't know what to say about it and maybe it was his fault. I asked for his help, I needed him and he shut me out. So if I ever go back to forks he's a dead man. I don't think I'm going back any time soon which pisses me off.
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One week later

I looked at my phone and noticed a lot of messages and voicemails. I decided I might need to listen to them and read the messages.

1) "hey sis it's been ruff and I wish you'd answer my calls" Jacob
2) "hey jellybean Jake said you won't answer his calls please call him" quill
3) "Hey bubbles jake is really sad and it's annoying please call him or me if that's better" Leah
4) hey Trinity I was hoping you would tell me how things have been going lately I know we all miss you here please call" dad
5) yo the guys are killing me here please call" embry 

I ignored every last one and didn't respond to anything. It hurt but only a little because I slowly stopped feeling. Months had passed after that and I could have cared less.