Miss Alan| Day Saver

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I pick up my phone, but I freeze. What am I doing? Tom...

I need to talk to Tom.

I scroll through my contacts and find Toms name. As I click on it, his information comes up. His funny little stupid picture that I attached as his icon. I sigh and click call.

I watch as it dials.

"Hey Chris! What's up?!" He sounds excited. "Hey, you sound happy" I chuckle to myself. "Yeah! Well uhm my mum is taking me and my sister on a two day vacation to get us away from school and trouble for a while. Anyways what's up?" He explains.

I smile. "I got Lilas diaries..." I sigh, a tear bridging my eye. Wanting to let go. It hangs there as I wait for Toms response.

"Did you read them?" He asks. Then goes my breaking point. I sob. "Yeah... remember our trip to Spain?" I ask through my tears and croaky voice.

"Yeah..." Toms voice only comes out as a whisper. "She has 4 whole pages dedicated to that trip. She talks about how we're the glue holding her life together as her parents divorced. She was so confused with life. The only reason she loved coming to school was to escape her mother's tantrum from the divorce. From the headaches of noise because she couldn't escape reality... Tom... she needed us. I couldn't save her... I killed her... but she said that her trip to Spain with us two was the highlight of her life." I explore.

We sit on the beach enjoying the sun. My skin absorbing the light, darkening my skin while beside my Lila and Tom fumble with the sun cream as Tom is already visibly burnt. "Ow!" He cries in pain. "You've been outside for 2 minutes! How are you burnt?" I ask holding back laughter.

"How are you already dark? Ow! It hurts don't press it!!" He responds. "There done!" Lila concludes sitting beside me on her singular towel. "Pfft who needs sun cream?" I mock. "Fuck you Chris" Tom eyes me as he lays on his towel.

After a while we're in the water spread out far into the ocean. It's not too heavy gladly. We throw the ball to each of us and jump the massive waves that almost drown Tom, making me and Lila almost drown laughing. Most happen to me as well.

Lila throws the ball to me. "I GOT IT!!" I jump attempting the catch the ball. My tongue on my lip for more precision. Obviously. And I catch it. Yay!

I land back into the water as a huge wave decides to come making me fall underneath the surface.

As I come back up I laugh along with Tom and Lila.

That Holiday seemed like freedom.

"I don't know how you burnt that bad?" I giggle. I can sense Toms annoyance. "I don't know how you got so great of a tan?! You're ginger!!" Tom wonders. "I don't know??" I laugh.

As I calm down, I mention the shopping trip we had last year. "Yeah and you went into a lingerie store not knowing that it was all feminine" I roll on the bed laughing. "Fuck you" Tom laughs.

"No Fuck you" I laugh.

"Hey you asked a security guard if he was only okay with the gun knocking him out" Tom pisses himself laughing.

"Mine wasn't even that bad. I knew the guy" I explain. "Bitch what?" Tom exclaimed.

I sigh intently. "Thomas we have school tomorrow" I roll my eyes.

"I know... wait no I don't! Haha!!" Tom jokes. "Well fuck you" I chuckle.

"Tom" I sigh... "You know there are moments... moments that are a split second your life changes forever... and- and before you know it... you're somewhere else... the most painful goodbyes are the ones that are never said and never explained..." I sniffle.