Miss Alan| Day Saver

19

I wake up and stretch as much as I could. I was in a grasp. I turn and see behind me that Rebecca has her arm wrapped around my waist. I smile. I watch as her nose scrunches up as she sleeps.

I take her arm off me and I sit up on the edge of the bed. I shiver due to the chilly temperatures in my room but I shake the feeling and I stand up.

The floor boards slightly creak as I make my way out of my room. I check the time as I pass the hall and it's 7:05am, I yawn.

As I slouch on the sofa, Calum walks into the kitchen. He sees me and smiles. "You're up early" I smile at him and chuckle to myself. I roll my eyes and abruptly stand up. As I make my way into the kitchen for breakfast, Ashton walks into the kitchen to Calum. "Ready to go mate?" He asks. I turn my head in confusion. "Where you going?" I ask, furrowing my brows. They chuckle. Ash gestures that they're going running, I just roll my eyes. "Athletic bastards" I mutter which makes Calum chuckle. "Come with us" Cal suggests.

"Not a fucking chance, especially not this morning. It's Wednesday!" They roll their eyes and walk out of the door. I make myself a bowl of cereal which I know I'll not finish and I'll end up making myself throw it up later.

I take a seat on the couch and I turn on the tv. As I watch the news I hear Rebecca emerge from my room. "Morning" she announces rubbing her tired eyes. "Morning" I chuckle to her.

She walks towards the kitchen making herself breakfast when I finish mine. When I say finish I mean I had like 5 spoonfuls and had enough. I place the bowl on the coffee table in front of me and make my way into my bedroom and then my bathroom.

Food just doesn't seem right sometimes, so I throw it back up. I don't always do it, 26% of the time I keep food down but the rest, it has to come up...

So I hover over the toilet and place my fingers at the back of my throat. As I gag, I feel the burning liquid travel up my oesophagus and into the toilet bowl. I can't help it.

I sit beside the toilet and grab some toilet paper to wipe my mouth. I begin to stand to my feet again and I flush the toilet. I brush my teeth to obviously clean them and get rid of the sickly taste that is resolved in my mouth.

I look at myself in the mirror. I don't see perfect... I don't see a happy person. I just see a broken, depressed young girl and someone who has nothing for the future...

My thoughts bring tears to my eyes but I quickly wipe them as I hear Ashton and Calum returning.

I make my way back to my bedroom and pick out a cute outfit for the day. I grab some cute black jeans and a black top with a red strip along the breast. I put my hair into a cute ponytail.