Your name is Crystal (Chris, Chrissy)
You're a female
You're also a lesbian
You have problems at home but your teacher doesn't know.
Miss Rebecca Alan is a Historical teacher
If she found out about your home life she'd shut you down. You're like h...
He looks me in the eye. Pain... "I'm sorry..." he whispers. I at him. I give him a sympathetic look. "I did it again. I-I" he lifts up his two fingers, index and middle and holds them together. "I can't stop..." he cries. He falls into my arms. "Me too bud..." I try to whisper but he hears. "What?" He asks, sitting up properly and looks at me confused. I look down ashamed. "I'm sorry..." I say in a whisper.
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His hand goes under my chin making me look at him. "Chris? Are you eating?" He asks. I hesitate but I shake my head. "If I am I can't keep it down...I have to get it out of my system!" I collapse into his arms in tears.
Why am I like this? I can't eat. I can't sleep right... "Are you sleeping well?" He asks. I shake my head. "You wanna talk about it?" He asks. Again I shake my head.
I was 10 when I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety at 9. Cal believes I have an eating disorder, like him but I don't wanna believe that, I don't wanna believe I am ruining myself!
~*~
A few months later
I sit in the living room on the sofa next to my best friends. Tom on my left, Lila on my right. "Bastard!" Lila yells throwing a haribo at the tv. "You really hate Mark? As in Mark Sloan???" I yell looking at her offended. "He has the same name as your brother lucky but no I don't like him!!!" She says. I hear Tom chuckle. "Well I can tell this is your first time watching greys Anatomy" I roll my eyes chuckling.
"Chris? Have you done your homework?" Calum asks taking a bite of a banana. I give him a disgusted look and roll my eyes. "Totally" I say nodding my head. He walks over and grabs the tv remote. He turns off the tv and looks at all 3 of us unimpressed. "All of you sit at the kitchen island, math books out and get your bloody work done" He says pointing to the kitchen counter. We all look at each other and roll our eyes. We groan as we stand up from our seats making our way to the kitchen counter.
~*~
Hours go by and I feel exhausted. I look up at Calum who is leant over the counter currently explaining something to Tom.
Rebecca walked in earlier while we were working and she started laughing because we hate to do work. But Cal had taken our phones. Heavy sigh I know.
Ashton walks in swinging his keys around his fingers. He whistles. He had just been on a heavy jog and went to shower. He came back into the living room and sat down. "Cal I'm taking them two home now" Calum nodded. Tom and Lila stood up and put away their books. I sigh putting away mine. "You're mean" I laugh at him. He smirks at me. "Stop falling asleep in my class then" I look at him and dramatically put my hand to my chest. I laugh.
Rebecca walks and jumps next to Ashton on the sofa. "Chris? Wanna go shopping after school tomorrow?" She asks leaning down that she isn't blocked by Ash. I look at her then at Calum. He looks at me confused. "She lives here, she can take care of you don't look at me" he states. I nod. As I look back towards Rebecca I purse my lips. I nod and she smiles.
"Tom, Lila come on. Pack your shit." Ashton says patting his knees as he stands. Tom rolls his eyes and walks to me. He hugs me and kisses my forehead. "See you tomorrow at school! Bye bitch!" I giggle at him and I look toward Lila. I stick my middle finger up at her and she laughs. "Love you too boo!" She states.
They walk out and Calum grabs a protein shake. He walks towards his room and I'm confused as he left his shake on the counter. A few minutes later he walks back out with his gym clothes on. "I'm going on a run mkay" I nod at him. He grabs his shake and his keys and waves as he exits.
11:30pm
I sit watching the tv in my room when my bedroom door opens. The silhouette of a person stands at the door. The light from the tv reveals Rebecca. I smile and I watch her walk towards the bed. She sits on the end of the bed and takes off her shoes.
She walks over to the closet, of which we share, and she takes out some pyjamas then walks towards the bathroom. As she goes inside, my attention crawls back to the tv. I decided to watch Greys Anatomy because why the fuck not.
Bec comes back out and gets into her side of the bed. "You could've waited so I could watch with you, I've watched this like a million times. I love Greys Anatomy!" She announces. I smirk at her as I see a slight smile on her face from the corner of my eye.
As we watch I feel sleepy, I lower my head but instantly lift it to stay awake. My head falls onto Rebecca's shoulder and I feel her vibrate as she giggles. "Goodnight sweetie"
That was the last thing I heard before I fell asleep.
