Miss Alan| Day Saver

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It's the day of Chris funeral. We had Lilas a few days ago. Ashton's, two days before LilaszWe didn't want them together but a few days apart. It would have been better to let them go separate.

"Bec?" I sniffle knocking on the door to the room Chris and Rebecca shared. There's no answer so I open the door. She's sobbing into the bed with the present clutched to her chest. "Rebecca!" I panic. "I CAN'T DO IT! CAL PLEASE DON'T MAKE ME DO IT!!" She sobs. I put her head to my chest and she sobs. "I don't want to do it either. But we have to. Tom said he'd meet us there. Get dresses come on. Be strong for her"

"She was supposed to graduate in 2 weeks. Her and Lila" she whispers to me. "I wanted to see her graduate."

"I know Rebecca"

Eventually she gets dresses and we make our way to the venue. Seeing many people from school. I stand outside the church hall unable to move. Rebecca does the same.

"Mr Sloan? Miss Alan? Are you coming in?" Damien asks. We're both letting our tears roll down our face staring at the building.

Rebecca breaks slowly falling to her knees. Damien quickly runs and wraps her into a hug. "I know. It's hard to say goodbye to someone... how close were you?" He asks.

"I lived with Mr Sloan and Chris lived there too" she states, wiping her tears. But they're like a river. It just keeps flowing.

"You were like family" He states. Rebecca nods. She sobs into his shoulder attempting to compose herself.

I lift her off the floor and I walk towards the building. I can do this!

I can let her go.

I know Rebecca won't.

I walk through the hall passed all the guests and I see someone who's not familiar however I see the person beside them.

Ashley is here. She's with two police officers obviously but she's here. I smile at her.

Finally I take my seat beside Tom then I'm followed by Rebecca who sits next to me.

The priest begins to bless Chris and talk about her. "Crystal Shears was a wonderful young girl whose life ended too soon. Far too soon. At just the age of 18, she sadly left us. She's joining her friends who are like her family Lila and Ashton who we earlier said goodbye to within the passed week. A young soul shouldn't have to leave so soon."

He continues but I notice Rebecca's hands are shaking. Placing my own on Rebecca's they don't stop. Her hands are like earthquakes.

"I'd love to hear the speech and message from her brother Calum Sloan." I hear my name and I perk up. Slowly, I pull myself to my feet, allowing myself to move I stand at the podium.

Taking a look over all the guests, I look down. Yes I'm free-styling this.

"Crystal preferred Chris. I don't know why but she did. She was a lesbian who tried hard not to fall in love, she eventually did but-" I sigh "Not everything goes according to plan. You see if you could read her mind... you'd be in tears. She was trapped in her own mind for most of her life. I wanted to set her free.

On May 14th Chris saved me from our father. She took a bullet for me. I thanked her a lot for it.

I think she was afraid to love sometimes. I think it scared her. Scared she'd get hurt. She was the type to like things that are concrete, like the ocean. Something you could point to and know it was... And- and I think that's why she struggled with love. She couldn't hold onto it and make sure it never changed.

First my twin brother was killed in a car accident, a drunk driver hit him. She was in that car with him, she watched her brothers life slip away. Then she saw her best friends lives be ripped from them.