Friday the 3rd March:
Got my periods last night. Or should I say this morning. I just woke up at 3am with an intolerable and inexpressible pain in my belly. Just turned out that I'm bleeding from below. I couldn't go back to sleep so just kept crying in my bed and trying to distract myself with a film. I finally fell asleep around 9am but had to wake up 2 hours later.
Earlier, I was doing French when I fell across a text of Blaise Pascal, a French writer, which was about "entertainment". I found it very interesting and relevant considering our current situation. According to Pascal, everyone is in the grip of entertainment, which consists of the desperate search for consolation in the
face of the difficulty of being oneself. Entertainment refers to futile human activities (seeking glory or material goods) to escape our "weak and deadly human condition". And I think that there is nothing truer than that.
Nothing is more unbearable than staying with yourself, with your demons, and your painful memories, consuming you from the inside out until you even feel physical pain.
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Lockdown Diary of an emotionally unstable mess
Truyện NgắnIt's been about a month that we're all stuck at home. Some people doing better than others. I think I'm starting to lose track of time, and being alone with myself isn't doing me any good. So I decided to write this. To stay sane, and remember this...
