Hate that I love you | Jikook | COMPLETED

Chapter 4

One of these days, maybe your magic won't affect me

And your kiss won't make me weak

But no one in this world knows me the way you know me

So you'll probably always have a spell on me

– Hate that I love you, Rihanna ft. Ne-Yo

Jimin didn't know how long they had spent together. They had talked once both had stopped crying. It had been hours and the sky was dark outside, but none of them had wanted to leave the other's embrace.

Jungkook kept rubbing his back and kissing the top of his head, whispering apologies every minute, telling him how much he missed him. It was more than he ever dreamed of. Jimin couldn't believe he was where he wanted to be. Jungkook now knew the truth. That was enough.

"Hyung..." Jungkook called after a while.

"Yes."

"Will you give me another chance?"

Jimin's head whipped up, eyes blinking the tears away as he stared at Jungkook wordlessly. "W-What?"

"I know I don't deserve your forgiveness or another chance," he spoke earnestly and looked so sincere that Jimin's heart clenched. "Will you allow me to make it up to you, hyung?"

"Jungkook..."

What was he even talking about? Jungkook suffered just as much as he did, though in a different way. He didn't know the truth and believed Jimin had left him. He had tried to contact him and it wasn't his fault he couldn't reach Jimin. How could Jimin hold Jungkook responsible for something that wasn't even in his control?

"It's okay if you don't want to. I'll understand." Jungkook averted his gaze. "Will you at least talk to me? I don't think I'll be able to go on without you. I was barely living, hyung. There wasn't a day where I stopped thinking about you."

"Jungkook..."

"I'm sorry. I'm being selfish again, aren't I? I'll just...whatever you want I—"

Jimin kissed him. The good old method he always used to shut him up to stop him from blabbering. Jungkook stiffened, seemingly frozen before he began to kiss him back. It was still the same as he remembered. Jungkook still felt the same. So soft, yet firm.

Jungkook cupped his face to deepen the kiss and Jimin couldn't hold back the soft sob. Oh how much he missed this. He desperately clung to Jungkook. He didn't want to let go again.

***

Jungkook couldn't believe the way things had turned out in the past couple of hours. His emotions were haywire. He couldn't believe the effect Jimin still had on him. He had realized how foolish his actions were as soon as Jimin had walked into that room.

Many people had told him that he was unreasonable at times. But Jungkook believed he was always reasonable. There was always a reason behind his actions. He always thought twice before doing something. But once he had made a decision no one could change his mind. He was stubborn that way.

Jungkook hadn't regretted his life choices like he did when he met Jimin again. Maybe the reasons he kept giving himself for all this weren't true. He wasn't being completely honest with himself.

Deep down he just wanted to see if Jimin would even care. To see how Jimin would react if he learned Jungkook was getting married. He wanted to know if it would hurt Jimin to see that he has moved on and not stuck on him. He just wanted to know if Jimin really loved him like he did.