Poems I wish I could send you

Chess

Loving you was this amazing high

This thrill of doing something I knew I would later come to regret

It was like getting a tattoo 

You're excited and scared but when it's done its beautiful 

The next day you're a little sore, a little hurt but you know you'd put yourself through it all again because the pain was worth the high 

And boy were you quite the high but everytime you left it'd sting a little bit more because I was convinced that this story book I had read a million and one times was going to end differently

And that is my fault

Thinking I was a pawn in this game of chess and treating you like the king 

Without you I'd lose but I am so much more than merely a pawn

Im the queen because while I cannot win without you, everyone knows the queen is the most valuable piece

It feels like my life is this game centered around you

Every thought every move I have is to protect you when every move I should be making should be protecting me

Why is the queen not prioritized when they are the most valuable