Poems I wish I could send you

Love at first message

If I'm being honest I didn't fall in love with you when we first talked

I thought you were funny 

A new friend but nothing more 

I in no way thought I'd end up loving you so much

You did though you saved our very first conversation because you could tell I was going to be special

I always thought I fell first I loved you the most but I was wrong

The first time we talked I didn't even know if after that day we would get along

If I would even stick around

How did it end up being you who left me

I sat and pondered at the stars finding no comfort in them

No comfort in the fact that while we were hundreds of miles away from each other we were under the same stars

You taught me boundaries you taught me how to love

I taught you that not everyone leaves

An idea you had later proved me wrong with 

Maybe if I held on longer 

Maybe if I didn't let you go

It's funny when you broke up with me it didn't even seem to upset you

I had spent my whole day crying and I texted you and you texted back saying why aren't you sleeping my love Im sorry I was working all day beautiful how are you

Maybe I shouldn't have reminded you of our conversation from this morning seeing as you perhaps thought it to be a figment of your imagination 

It ruined my whole day and you didn't remember 

It's funny because why didn't you

Did you still love me 

Did you crave the affection and hope I would not bring it up

Did it genuinely slip your mind or were you so not bothered with it because I meant nothing to you 

It's funny because my closest friends hate you for all that you have done but even they have hope for us 

Hope that one day you can fix yourself and we can be us again

Because they have never seen a love so pure 

And I have never experienced a loss so great