Poems I wish I could send you

Unhealed soul

I loved you so much 

I still recall those long conversations we would have at 2 am about all of my picky food opinions 

How we longed to grow up

All of the little signs of love we had exchanged before realising we were in love

I remember when you first said you loved me and we pinky promised that it would be forever 

You also knew how seriously I took pinky promises but you were so confident that you would never stop loving me you made it anyways 

Here we are 4 years later and you're always off and on with me 

We haven't spoken for a couple of months 

Your request of course because after all of this time I still haven't broken our promise

Here you were telling me that I needed better than you, it's best if I leave you.. on and on and on

Any excuse of not being with me 

I wish it was cause you saw someone more interesting to be with

That you had lost interest in me and this seemed to be the best way to distance yourself from me

But you genuinely didn't think you deserved me 

While you may not, all I had wanted was you

All you needed to do to deserve me was be there for me like you used to be 

You loved me and it scared you and you have been told and shown that you aren't enough and that this cant work so you gave up

I grew up and parts of you still remind me of the young boy you were when we met

All of those damaged parts that have not healed yet 

But i'm different now and while I know my part of our promise will always be true another part of me knows that you may never get over pushing me away

And love isn't supposed to be a tug of war