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Chapter 14

The covers that night became my skin. The comfort of them was eating me alive. Physically, I was in heaven. But mentally and emotionally, I was nowhere. I tried to calm my fearful thoughts the whole ride home with Ryan. I couldn't even stay with him because the only thing I could even think about was Caleb. I groaned and put my pillow over my head, trying to relax. I couldn't endure one more sleepless night. Not one single more. My brain was exposed to every shadow and every pair of eyes. I squeezed my eyes shut tightly. My drug use is besides the point. Goddamn you Caleb. I know your okay... Your smart. I repeatedly told myself he was okay. He's been on his own before. He's okay... He has to be. He has to be.

I closed my eyes tighter, pulling the blanket over my body. And eventually, I fell asleep.

His lips moved against mine and I could feel the soft skin of his lips on my body. His lips moved down, past my chest, past my stomach, and to my underwear line. I could feel my body burning, aching for his body. I bit my lip, not being able to control myself. My fingers tugged on his hair as his teeth ripped at my underwear softly. I closed my eyes. I was loving the feeling of his presence. Just him. I needed this always. Not caring.. Caleb's tongue traced my thighs and I knew this was right where I wanted to be.

My eyes fluttered open. I looked at myself. But I was alone. I was alone...

I sat up, feeling more tired than when I had went to bed. I ran my hands over my face and looked around my room. After I failed to get a sense of time I gave up and checked my phone. Dead. "Fuck", I murmured. I stood up and plugged my iPhone into its charger next to my bed. Noisily, I thudded to the bathroom. My eyes were naked, plain. All my make up was smudged or washed off. My lip and chin were red, fresh wounds. Though on the brighter side, my eye had returned to normal. My blonde hair was matted to my head and to my neck.

I needed a shower.

I stripped my clothes and threw all of them in the dirty clothes. Stepping into the warm water, I felt my skin get goosebumps. I buried my face in the droplets and drowned my hair in the water.

It felt great on my exhausted body. I used my normal shampoo. It smelled kinda like almonds. But it made my hair feel silky. Then I hurried and ran a soapy sponge on my body.

I stepped into the cold bathroom, turning the water off as I did so. My hair was stringy and stuck to my back, dripping water down my spine. I rang my hair out over the shower floor, so I didn't soak the tile.

I grabbed the first clothes I saw in the dresser. It was a pair of grey shorts and a white tank top. I pulled them on after my underwear. "Ashley..", a distorted voice whispered. I stopped tugging on my shorts and looked around. No one.. I closed my eyes, pressed my fingers to my temples. "Shut up," I said allowed. And I finished pulling on my clothes. I ran a brush through my hair, and checked my phone. It had charged a little bit since I had taken a shower.
When my screen lit up, my mouth dropped. Tuesday, 4:53 a.m.

Wow.
I had managed to crash for a whole day, going on two. I chuckled to myself. "Damn..", I whispered. I realized that I had two missed calls from a number that I didn't recognize. But I decided they weren't important. "Guess this means I misssed school yesterday," I said, still musing over how long I had been out.

I was also realizing I needed food. Not caring about how loud I was, I walked into my moms room and grabbed a 20 off her shelf. It was never a big deal to take cash from my mom. She never minded because she could just always replace it with her new boyfriends salary. I grimaced as I left the room, hearing the snores of Josh and my mother. They didn't notice me as I shut the door behind me.

I drove my car for the first time I'm a couple days. I was really craving a burger from McDonald's. I felt like I could eat the whole menu. My stomach rumbled and for once, I could eat. I ordered a large quarter pounder and a sweet tea. I prayed my stomach could handle this.