I guess that everyone have days when you don't even know why you are angry or sad and depressed. Everything seem to fall down and you just see things more realistic than they really are, and then there the feeling that eating you inside and you feel like something is wrong, but you don't know how to fix it maybe you decited wrong and maybe life could be a little bit easier, If you just know what to do at some moments. It's like never ending circle you wake up work home sleep and with everything you are left alone and everyone thinks how happy you are, but really you are just dead with smile behind it all, is just a mask that killing you behind the mask is blood and tears your soul is burning and you can't breath. so many people are around you but not single one that really get your attention. you feel like there is no other way , than just leave it behind or just kill you this are the moments when we are lonely and thinking what more could i do to be better ? Why i am not good enough ? I do my best and it's still not enough. there are a lot of more question that are never answered. because even If we answer them we will never believe it because there will be times when they arrive again and haunt us again. we will blame ourselfs for believing in us and everything will fall apart once again. what is really love ? It's when you care about the person more than you care about anything in your life ? Is it that trust you feel or the peace when you hug the person ?it's breaking my heart to see so many people being in love with the "wrong person " i believe that not true because maybe the person just come at the bad time and all you could have is more than destroyed, even thought you try to make it work but at the end you will feel that maybe it was just another mistake to learn from. at the end we end up being dissapoined with mostly ourselfs and we are afraid of love or being loved the way we love. my heart is burning in so many ways i can't even count how many things broke me but at the end i'm always alone and that the way i am used, a sad way of making my self go up again, but this time i don't have what for.
I know all of you wonder what happen after the awards Sky ask me to marry her, my answer was yes we end up married we were so happy, then a man come to our lives and break us she needed him and i needed her. all the fights and arguments made her hate me and i loved her more and more. that it's just break me in every way i had to let her go and be happy with him. i move away far away all alone because i knew that it would be easier this way and that how our love story ended. it was a beautifull way of finding ourselfs and being loved in so many ways, at the end is the best way to love you in silence and watching you be happy with your life is the greatest form of loving you. the only form of love i could show you. For now
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Romance"I love you ". "I would die for you " she said and take a deep breath "They betrayed us " she said and look deep into my eyes "You betrayed me " i point at the her...
