lost

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Stephan

When I awoke in the middle of the night, I couldn't figure out what was wrong but just felt a disturbance, I reached over to snuggle up into Sang to find her missing from our bed, I listen closely and could here the raging storm outside so I just assume she went to the bathroom,.

How could I be so stupid to harm her like I did, at that point I was no different than her family when I first met her and watched as she took the abuse when I walked into their house that evening to collect payment from her father. I watched as she was force to drink something,with her eyes full of fear,not one tear did slip down.

When her father said he didn't have all the cash, I couldn't help and tell him I will take what cash he had and his daughter for payment. I just had to get her out of there. She was not only young and gorgeous,but an innocent does not deserve that kind of treatment,sure I may be part of the most feared gang in France,and we do torture those that can't pay,but we never harmed the innocent,that was not our ways.

So with his approval we shook on it and I made him sign a contract that he will never come looking for her.

Little did I know,even if he had,she would not be found due to her non existence in the government.

So I had taken her with me back to hq to introduce her and talk to Pierre.

When I had brought her in, I got weird looks but no one said anything and went straight to Pierres office. When I first introduced him to her,I could see the way he eyed her with lust. I knew then I would have to keep her away,while he is my best friend,he was not so innocent to getting what he wants,and right now he wants her in his bed. Poor thing couldn't even talk due to the concoction she was forced to drink.

But over that first year of her staying with us,we managed to help her heal and train her in everything from guns and knives, to getting her high school diploma. We kept her identity from the government not only for our purposes but for her safety as well. Over the second year,her and I had become close, and I claimed her as my own, while she agreed because she didn't trust anyone else not to hurt her especially after a training session gone wrong when Madelyn and some of the others tried to attack her.

I knew she felt like a prisoner her and wanted to leave but at this point, I couldn't let her,she was the one I was falling in love with, she was smart, beautiful, brave and a warrior all wrapped into a little tiny package at the height of five foot,she had the body of woman with the curves in all the right places. When we hit the three year mark if her being with us we took another step in a relationship she didn't want, we would kiss,cuddle as well as other things. I told her when she hit twenty one we would wed. My hope was she would eventually return my feelings for her to me and while we weren't there yet, I could start seeing the changes of her feelings. Until one day things went wrong on a drop,I came home so angry and frustrated and took it out on her. And couldn't stop myself,even after we went to America to bring the new stuff in I continued to take my anger out on her. The only thing I could keep right was to protect her from Pierre taking advantage of her as she was mine.

I saw the sadness in her eyes Everytime I would hit her, one time she even yelled at me, letting me exactly how she felt,that she wasn't going to be used and abused anymore. That if I was just gonna build her up to knock her down,I should have just left her with her blood family.

While it hurt me on the inside,I still couldn't stop.
As I got up to go find her, she wasn't in the bathroom, or anywhere, I awoke everyone up to help find her, no one could,but with the slamming of a door to the outside,my gut was telling me to follow. When I finally got outside in the raging storm, I was too late and I watched Sang jump from the boat into the freezing cold,raging ocean below. And it was at that moment, I realized what I had truly done. And it was time I take back my life from where it was heading, and with determination, I will find her again,whether to give her a proper burial, or to grovel at her feet for forgiveness, I can only hope it's the latter.

With that I turned around and decked my best friend and everyone moved out if my way as I went back to my room. When someone spoke to me, all I did was glare and reminded them how they treated her. They just put there heads down in shame and by the time daybreak hit, we were a boat full of solemn and grief stricken people. For this gang had lost there light if the group. Even Pierre managed to lock himself in his room and didn't want to deal with thlife of the gang. Deep down I feel he actually grew to love her and if it came down to it,I would have shared her with him.

Sang hold on wherever you are, I'm going to find you, and if your alive I am going to treat you like the queen you are and worship you like you should have been. Now how to find the missing,when they probably don't want to be found.