Roomate's Rules ✓ᵗᵏ

40. Meant to suffer

|Taehyung's perspective|

      "Jimin, you saw Jungkook?" I ask while I pray in my mind to hear a positive response.

    After what he heard about that stupid bet, he left, and he didn't picked up, even at a call from me. And now I'm more than worried. Because I keep reminding his words "I don't know what is really more stupid. The fact that I really thought you love me, or the fact that I really thought I deserve to be loved."

     I already know about all of this insecurities, and right now, he probably thinks again at some bad things. And I'm scared. Because he was doing so fucking well! He started to heal, and I'm afraid that I destroyed his progress.
     
 

   Jimin looks at me confused, and I already can tell... I will not hear what I want.

     "What do you mean? He went to talk with you, it's not at your room?" he asks at his turn, while I let out a frustrate sigh, then I sit on the bench, without caring that I'm in the hall, where a lot of students goes by.

     He wanted to talk with me. And in return...

     "I... I was stupid as fuck." I admit then I see how Jimin sits next to me.

     "What you did? I swear, Kim. I will make to regret if you hurt Jungkook." he says and I take a deep breath.

     I have to tell him. Maybe he can help me to find Jungkook. I'm nervous as fuck at the moment, and I'm desperate. He need to find my bunny.

      "When I first saw him... A made a bet with my friends." I admit in a guilty tone, while the other just grits his teeth.

     "What bet?" I hear his low voice, and I have to tell— even if he is short, he can be scary as well.

      "I was supposed to make Jungkook to fall in love with me, then to fuck him and laugh of him after." I say in a shamed tone, then I look at the ground. "But I wasn't thinking even a second that I will be the one which will fall in love. I guess nobody can resist to that cute bunny." I continue and I smile a little, but then my smile drop. "I swear to God, I began to love him with all my heart, Jimin. I saw his vulnerable side, and he saw it mine. He helped me to find myself, and I began to feel again how means to be happy." I say and he looks at me intently.

     "Then what happened?"

      "He hears everything. That stupid Yoongi was in my room and he started to talk about that bet. Jungkook heard me and his expression... Was painful to watch. I felt my heart aching exactly at that moment. My poor baby, I made him hurt as hell." I say then  I see a few people glancing at us, but I really don't care right now.

      Let them talk whatever they want.

     "Where he is now?" he asks again and I glance at him, hoping that he can help me.

      "I don't really now. I tried to call him, Jimin. I really tried. But he doesn't pick up. We are in the camp, and the teacher thinks he is in the room. If he finds out, Jungkook will be in big troubles. So please try to call him, please." I beg him, and he seems amazed.

      He smiles a little and I don't know what's going on. I'm almost dead worried, and he smiles? What the hell!?

    "I will never forgive you for what you did, Kim. But you seems to care about Jungkook now, so I will try to call him. " he reply and I refrain myself from hugging him, because yeah, I'm more than grateful.

    I just hope Jungkook will answer to him at least. I really have to know that he is ok.

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|Jungkook's perspective|

      Disgusted.
      Lonely.
      Without any direction.

     That's how I feel at the moment. In short, exactly how I used to feel before to know Taehyung. Before to fall in love with him. Before to be just a toy of his.

     He made fun of me, of my feelings. He made a fucking bet. He wanted to steal my virginity, and for what? A bet.

     He pretended to loves me. He told me many cute nicknames, he gave me some sweet kisses, some warm hugs. He was there when I wanted to hurt myself, when I was still in not my best state of mind. He helped me to find again the right way.

     But everything was just an act for him. Everything was nothing more than just a role. And damn... He is such a great actor!

     Because sometimes ( most of the time actually) I really felt that he truly likes me. That his words are real.

     But no. I was wrong when I accepted his 'love'. I knew it from the very start that something seems tricky. Me and him are different like the moon and the sun.

     Why I even thought that someone can really love me? When all my life was just a lie, why I thought that Taehyung's love can be real?

     I'm as stupid as ever.

     I take a deep breath, then I wipe away a few tears. I don't have any idea where I am, or where I will go. But after I heard his discussion with Yoongi, going out— at some fresh air— for awhile, seems to be the best idea. This one, and to close my phone.

     What I will do from now on? I guess I will have to face him eventually. And no, I will not change my room. I will stay in the same room as him. Because even it hurts me as fuck to see him, even if I keep remembering Yoongi's words, I want to look exactly in his eyes. I want to feel some pain. I want to be hurt again and again.

      I deserve to be punished. Why? Because I was idiot enough to think that I can be love by someone. Some people are born to be unlucky, and I'm one of them.

     I just can feel sadness, happiness can not exist in my life.

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     Second update hehe^^ Kinda useless this chapter, but yeah, it's still an update so shttt 🦋😌

    From now on the chapters will be more angsty hehe^¥