Opposites Attract

Drowning

Jonathan

I grabbed the vodka bottle

and took another shot

from the top

i wiped my mouth with my sleeve

my mom looked at me wearily

What happened to you

those wrethched words were

etched in her eyes

i grinned

Annabella happened to me

i thought in my mind

i felt like a screw up

entirely

and i felt warm

unnaturally

but that may be from the alcohol

i felt dirty

it was a weird sensation

as if mud was

stained on my skin

as annabella's friend

with strawberry colored hair walked out

of my bathroom

she has skills

with her silver tongue

i grinned harder

she only wore panties and a bra

they were black lace

my mom shook her head in dissapointment

"Son i hope you are prepared

for what comes next"

Her eyes shined

and she seemed somewhat smaller

i still grinned

"Get the fuck out of my room"

i said laughing

Strawberry hair

i think her name is alex

frowned

but decided to straddle my lap

when my mom slammed the door

i slammed my lips on hers

and the warmth came back

but it was more of a sting

a strikingly warm pain

that was etched on my skin

like mud

disgusting

thats what i was

disgusting

"Caraphernelia" by pierce the veil

shrieked in the background

screaming "What if I can't forget you!"

What if i just drowned in trying

what if i drowned in sensation until

i forgot myself

her skin was soft

i grazed my fingers along her hips

what if i stopped looking for

her face in crowds

she began to grind her hips

round

what if i stopped seeing him grab her

pull her to him forcefully

and round

what if i stopped seeing her kiss him

i wrapped strawberry curls around my hand

and pulled

what if i just stopped listening

to a damn band that i love

because they remind me of you

and air guitars

she groaned and i let go

what if i stopped caring

her hands ran across my chest

her eyes stared into mine

as if she could eat me alive

what if she knew how

disgusting i am

gripped her hips and pulled her

on top of me as i layed back

i decided it would be best to drown

in lust without love

with out being gentle or kind

with bitting lips

and roughly rubbing hips

i was drowning

why won't anyone pull me out

she moaned

and the music faded into the background

as she clawed at my back

as her own arched off

the bed

i laughed then

but she didn't notice