You Led Me On

Uno

Chapter 25 — Uno

Clara

 “Clary, open the door!” I heard Alec hit the door softly but talking with a demanding voice.

I had my face hidden between my knees, as I hugged my legs, bringing them towards me. I was shaking violently, unable to control it, as the dried tears hurt on my face. I took a deep break, lifting my head and looking into the ceiling breathing heavily, not sure on what to do.

“Clary, please” I recognised Chris’ voice.

I stretched my legs, wondering whether if I should answer the door or not. I didn’t give it much thought, I could just let Chris in…I stood up slowly, resting against the wall as I felt my whole body wobbly and ready to faint any time now. My stomach was burning and twisting, causing an uncontrollable pain in my whole body and weakening me with each second. I walked slowly towards the door and as soon as I reached it, I rested my forehead against it, feeling the cool wood.

“Are Dom or Matt with you?” I asked. Hearing my voice tremble just made me feel worse, but also my throat was dry and sore.

“Both, yeah…” He answered.

I took a deep breath, and closed my eyes, feeling my eyelids burn my eyeballs and I felt my stomach twist even harder. I grabbed the knob, ready to turn it around and let Chris is.

“Chris, I’m opening the door, but only you can come in. I can’t really look at Dom or Matt right now” I said softly.

“Alright?” He answered softly.

I opened the door, as Chris rushed inside the room. He looked at me, and saw my pale self. I had huge purple-ish bags underneath my eyes, dried lips, and red eyes. I looked like the most miserable thing on earth. I looked like a living dead. He closed the door and hugged me tightly. The moment I felt his warm arms hold me; I broke down and cried hardly, with my face against his chest. My whole body ached, and my throat was all sore from vomiting and crying all afternoon. Chris stroked my hair slowly, whispering to me that everything was going to be alright. It’s not that I didn’t believe him, but it didn’t feel like it was going to get any better. My heart was beating poorly and I had a terrible headache, driving me nuts and tired.

“Hey” He said breaking the hug and holding my head between his hands “It’s okay” He whispered. “Hey, look at me” I was staring into the floor and I slowly moved my gaze to meet his brown eyes. “It’s going to be okay” He assured me with a gentle forced smile.

He hugged me again, resting his chin over my head.

“Are you going to tell me what happened?” He whispered. “You have no idea how freaked out was Alec when he called Dom to tell him how you were. Everyone outside are pretty scared…”

His words just pierced me harder into my chest; and made the tears fall even harder and faster, burning my skin on their way down my cheeks. I sobbed quietly, trying to hold on to what I could inside me, and I gathered my breath ready to tell Chris how I was feeling.

I took a step back, leaning against the wall and slid down to the floor, with my knees close to my chest. Chris sighed deeply and sat on the floor in front of me.

“Chris…” My voice broke immediately, and I sobbed but tried to keep the tears in. “Ha-have y-you heard Matt’s n-new song?” It was impossible for me to keep my voice from breaking.

“What? You mean Neutro…”

“Yeah” I cut him off “Shut up right there, unless you want to see my insides all splattered on the floor” I said covering my mouth with my hand, feeling my stomach twist, ready to make me puke again.