My diary

Chapter 1.6

Saturday, March 3th 2021

18.00

It's time I leave for the fair, because I just had a fight with my brother because of Rachid. I asked him if I could go with him to the fair and he said he couldn't because he was going with Rachid. I was completely okay with that, but suddenly he laughed and said 'you can go alone you know? It's sad you don't have the money', so I got all angry because I do have the money and he shouldn't be roasting someone based of money.

He is in the fault, but you should ignore things that don't add up. Because it clearly isn't true, then why get mad about it?

And we all know that that's the influence of Rachid, right there. So he began and said 'so it's true? You do have psychological issues? Go and write your feelings in that book nobody wants to hear it'. You know I might or might not have thrown a chair at him and started crying. Now I'm locked up in my room and Rachid had just arrived.

Don't let it make you feel bad, he's just mad. It isn't true and hearing it from your brother might hurt, but maybe he had a bad day?

18.30
I have been interrupted by my brother telling me he's very sorry for his behaviour and asking if he should order some food for me before leaving. I ignored him until he left, but I really got to go now, because I don't want to get home too late. Mom gets mad about that.

I'm glad he feels guilty about his actions

22.00
I don't like to admit that I have cried maybe 99% of the day. I hate my brother, I hate him so much. And I hate Rachid even more, as I arrived at the fair I went on in alot of rollercoasters etcetera. I met Naoufal there and he asked if I wanted to come along with him and his friend in the spinning wheel.

A very nice guy!

I agreed and we went in with some cola and even churos and we laughed alot. Until the other place next to us got full and from all over there Rachid yelled and all 'isn't that your sister?' so obviously my brother got mad because I was in a spinning wheel with two boys.

Understandable, he's just overprotective

We got out he grabbed me by my arm and started yelling so I yelled back dat Naoufal is my guidance and it isn't such a big of a deal. He got me fucking home, all his friends laughing and started calling me all those words that I don't even want to say. Now I'm fucking mad, because he ruined such a great night. My phone just pinged and I read Naoufal's name on it so anxiety kind of kicked in, because my brother wants to take my phone away.

He handled that very wrong.

I don't know what he thinks he's doing, but my father is going to kill him. My mom might take his side, but she always takes his side (fucking mama's boy). I don't mind really, because I'm papa's princess. After all Samira was there and she thought it was kind of funny. I really wanted to slap that smile of her face, but MY brother stood up for her.

Talk to that fucking guy, before I kick his ass? Really Samira? *eyes rolling*

You know? My 'savior', my 'guidance', my 'other half', he fucking stood next to her and said 'don't ever talk to her like that', because I called her a bitch. As I said once before, but Marouane said I should see it from other perspectives, let me see.

Nah man, not this time. Kick his ass?

My brother is in a rollercoaster with two girls, can I get mad. No because he's a boy, and boys have permission to that....

Very much sexism, if you ask me

23.00

My mom is mad at me and my father kicked his ass, as he deserved to be honest. I can't go outside without permission now because I'm a fucking 'baby'. I hear knocking on my door and I'll be right back.

Your mom tries to protect you, maybe try having a deep conversation with her.

23.30

My brother has apologised and brought me some sushi, I haven't accepted the apology yet, but I did accept the sushi. He only apologises because of my father, otherwise he would ruin my room and kick everything around. Why do I need psychology again? You clearly have the wrong one.

You both need it ma'am
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Dear Muberra,

As things might go wrong but remember what god said in his books 'fa'inna ma'll usri yusran, inna ma'll usri yusran', "so indeed with hardship is ease. Indeed with hardship is ease". If those problems in house keep going on make sure to talk to them, if that doesn't help I'll call your mom and talk about it myself. Let your brother know that you're growing up and you can handle things yourself. And let him know that neither you or me are going to forgive him for defending Samira, unless he embarrasses her in front of Rachid, thankyou