My diary

Chapter 1.3

Thursday, 29 February 2021
20.00

Let's just say things didn't go as planned today. Like any normal teenager, I had a test today, unfortunately with all the circumstances in my life that didn't go the way it should. So this is exactly how it went.

I walked into the class, ready to take my test. I sat in the back because I was one of the first to choose my favorite spot. I took out my calculator and put everything neatly on the table.

The moment the test was in front of me everything started to go wrong. I scribbled on the paper and tried to breathe normally, but that didn't work. It seemed like a heavy wave hit my heart. Something went wrong, I couldn't breathe and it got too hot for me.

It's called a panick attack, I'll get you some medicine for that

I could hardly think properly. I quickly ran out of the classroom where I knelt quietly and called Naoual. It went straight to the voicemail "Naoual, I think it happened again. Naoual please answer" I say full of tears to which I try to keep my breath normally.

I'm a bit more shocked when I feel someone around me. Buried my face in his neck, I try to breathe calmly. Let me remind you that this is in the middle of the hallway in my high school.

When I look up I look into Adam's gray-brown eyes. "It will be fine" he tells me calmly. After these circumstances I am apparently allowed to resit my test for a sufficient week. After that I went to the "community center".

So? We like Adam now?

So it was quite fun in the community center. At least I tried to get rid of the picture that I was in Adam's arms. It's not exactly a 'great' thing

Oh, we don't like him?

Adam also acts as if nothing happened and as if he didn't hug me to death in the middle of the hallway while I was sitting on the floor. Seriously? couldn't the teacher find anyone else she decided to send him?

Couldn't he think of another way to calm me down? It's just awkward to be in the arms of someone you don't like. Would be like sitting in the arms of Michael from my class.

Chills run through my spine when I realize Adam might be thinking about this too right now. It could be that my brother finds this diary. I'll dig my grave in advance.

23.00

I am sorry for the interruption and that I am only now able to write something. It's just that my brother came to disturb me with his best friend Rachid. Oh Rachid anyway. You all know the one boy in your class.

You know the one that everyone thinks is handsome. Well I'm the person who then liked the ugliest person in class. So I could never talk to anyone who fell for the so-called "handsome" person, because I was the only one who liked the "meh" person.

Yes, I was that boy

Then that person still had the guts to pretend he was handsome and could advise against me. Bitch I'm the only one who likes you. Take it or leave it, so back to the topic.

I might have to run some tests for ADHD too.

So Rachid is the "handsome" guy that everyone likes. Cute because Samira had a big crush on him. Still has... wow, if she heard he's in my house right now and at this time.

About this time, she would face time me just to hear his voice in the background. Speaking of toxic, you know who's so toxic... Yassin. I've been able to cover him for the past few days, but he has to show up on time.

You should've blocked her a long time ago.

Since he has given himself up to "help" me, as it were, he must be there. I have to make his life miserable so that he regrets his decision. I'm really done with everyone, including Rachid. He still thinks he's a big deal.

Which he isn't :)

I'll talk to you tomorrow, if I have the time.

Goodnight y'all.

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Dear Muberra,
Yes people come and leave and to be honest, a loss like Samira doesn't really sound like a loss, it sounds more like a relief. About Rachid, I think even though you don't like him, he might like you. As the test about ADHD the next session will be talked about that too.