Warnings ⚠: Child Abuse, Rape, Violence, Religion, Drug Use, Alcohol Use, Use of Slurs, Homophobia, Bullying, Mention of Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicidal Actions, Gun Use.
Damien's P.O.V.
-Thursday, November 11th-
When the alarm goes off for school, I groan.
"I'm not going to school." I tell him, shutting the phone off.
After last night, and how much he seemed to need me after his nightmare... I'm going to have to do some thinking today.
About...leaving him.
If I would have killed myself a few nights ago, it wouldn't have been an issue.
"Okay. That's fine."
"Really? I figured you'd put up more of a fight. You've been clinging to me since, you know..."
I blink and he turns in the bed to look at me.
"Since what? I don't cling to you ever."
"Right. Okay." I smile, despite myself. I sigh and look into his eyes. "Can I tell you something?"
"If you want to."
"I...I love you. For real. Don't think that any of what's happened means I don't."
If anything it means I love him more.
If only he could see that.
"I do think that, and I won't stop. But I love you, too."
"Right. I'm sorry you see it that way." I sit up "I'll drive you to school."
I don't want to go after what I just did... I'm not 100% sure anymore.
"You don't have to. I know you don't want to go there."
"I can't let you walk. It's still snowing."
"I don't want you to go if it'll make you upset. I would be fine. I'm fine with the cold."
"It'll be fine. Just let me take you." I sigh.
"You do not need to."
"Yes, I do. I care about you, believe it or not."
"I know. You don't need to say it a billion times. That doesn't change the fact that I'm fine on my own. It's you we need to worry about."
"You don't have to worry about me either! I'm...handling it."
"Clearly not."
"I'm trying my best!"
"You've tried drinking alcohol and sitting on your roof."
"I've also tried working out and playing and listening to music but okay."
"Sitting on my roof helped. That house was so suffocating..."
"No. You're not willing to do things that will help."
"I've been trying Josiah! I've been trying since I was 8. I've been dealing with this my whole fucking life practically, and it hasn't gotten better."
"It's easier when you let it go instead of keeping all the bad emotions in. If they're in, they'll only hurt you."
"If I let them go I'll have nothing left." I say quietly.
"Bullshit. You would have a lot left if you let yourself. You're just unwilling to."
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August 24th- Book One in the May 3rd series
Любовные романыDamien Cohen is one of the lead bullies in the high school. His parents are major criminals who run illegal trading. He is tall, muscular, and handsome, and all the girls in school want to be with him. Because of his lifestyle, Damien has a hard tim...
