Warnings ⚠: Child Abuse, Rape, Violence, Religion, Drug Use, Alcohol Use, Use of Slurs, Homophobia, Bullying, Mention of Suicide, Suicidal Thoughts, Suicidal Actions, Gun Use
Josiah's P.O.V.
-Wednesday, October 20th-
Damien has been off lately...
I can't help but to worry about him.
A lot. All day.
He's given me no reason to trust that he won't...do something...
I don't know. I don't like thinking about it.
Him getting hurt is my biggest fear. As long as that doesn't happen, we're okay.
I stare at him as he does his homework.
I'm glad we're actually getting something done. It makes it feel more worthwhile, but I still get to be with him.
He doesn't do very well with talking and math at the same time.
But that's okay. I'll just watch him and wait for him to ask for help, or anything else he wants...
...I wonder if he secretly hates it when I just stare at him like this.
My dad would...
"How's it going?" I try to stop my thoughts.
We're doing tutoring at the table this time, to keep him from falling asleep...
"It's going. I only have two left."
"Do you feel pretty confident with it?"
"Um, mostly, so far. I guess we'll see when you check them." He chuckles.
He doesn't need me for this.
"Okay. Tell me when you're done."
I hate that thought. It keeps coming back.
He doesn't need me.
It's ridiculous. I'm not even 100% sure that Damien ever needed a tutor in the first place.
After all, he started inviting me over because he thought I was cute...
Ha...
I crack a smile but quickly get rid of it.
"...Done yet?" I ask.
"It's not even been a minute since you asked last."
"I panicked."
"Oh. No. Not yet." He turns back to his paper.
There's no way time is going that slow...
It's been at least ten minutes. For sure.
I rub my eyes and sigh deeply.
I like Damien in ways I won't even admit to myself.
Sometimes it scares me, sometimes it's...nice...?
I'm not sure. It's just different.
I guess what I mean is sometimes how much I like him and specific things about him doesn't scare me. Those times are very nice.
Why isn't he done yet?
I shift a bit, facing him.
He would have said something about the staring by now. I'm sure.
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August 24th- Book One in the May 3rd series
RomanceDamien Cohen is one of the lead bullies in the high school. His parents are major criminals who run illegal trading. He is tall, muscular, and handsome, and all the girls in school want to be with him. Because of his lifestyle, Damien has a hard tim...
