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| BEYONCÉ KNOWLES|
January 24th
Beverly Hills, California
Ella Mai's beautiful voice bounced off the workout room walls as I finished the last few pushups I was doing at the moment.
Today was just one of those days where I felt like doing something active.
I think it's that or I'm just plain bored.
The kids were over at my sister's house for the weekend because my nephew Julez didn't have any more school work to do so I just sent them over there.
I was glad I was kid-free but God I'm bored!
All of my friends were busy & my Mom don't even want me over there with her because she said she needs a break from me.
And the person I wanted to talk to most wouldn't respond.
Nicki
I don't know why but she just won't for some reason.
I sent her 4 extra text messages to check on her to see if she was fine, but she still didn't respond.
It was low-key about to piss me off.
I mean I can't be upset though because she has a whole husband.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I knew damn well she won't hold me on the same pedestal as him.
I am not a priority for her and I think that's what I need to understand.
I'm not tripping though.
Fuck man
Thinking about this whole thing just made me mad.
I threw the iron dumbbell on the padded floor and blew my breath.
I knew I should've listened to myself when I first started catching feelings for this girl.
I sluggishly walked over to the exercising balls to check my phone for any notifications.
I don't know why I didn't listen to my intuition when I had doubts about this.
My eyes quickly skimmed over the notification status and I saw Nicki's text notification.
Nika💍: Can I come over for a while? 💕
