Fading Lights: Sunrise | Herobrine x Redrare

Part 6: Being relieved in the wrong way [!]

(Who the fuck allowed Jubilea to be hawt- Fucking Senpai material over here-

Also a slight warning about depression and cutting- You're gonna get an inside on how Jub-Jub thinks)

It's been a while since I was with Xander. Sure, it was very nice and all when he's around, but since a while he has been gone whenever I wake up and returns when I'm long asleep.
Just because some stuff going on in TWOR.
I sighed weakly and stirred my tea, emptily staring into the empty kitchen.
3 weeks.
Those 3 weeks were showing me how pathetic I am when it comes to being alone.
Where I used to be able to help myself, I can't do shit here.
Where I used to be able to cook or something, I don't know anymore how to.
I was so damn dependant on him. Sure, my cooking already sucks ass, but now not even knowing how to...?
I hated this.
I hated everything about this.
I'm a Universe, you can't make a Universe look more pathetic than a human! Or... Demon or whatever he is. I'm supposed to be strong! Heck, In supposed to be greedy or some shit, but all I am is needy.
Scotty that asshole took my place away after all.
I sighed deeply and sipped my tea, thinking about what duties I had today.
Nothing that I was smart enough to do.
Great.
I sighed again and hugged myself, staring at the floor.
I missed him.
Like, honestly, I did.
I hoped his work was over soon, but with my luck...
I eventually finished my tea and put my mug into the sink, trailing my hand over the stuff next to it to put it away, still deep in thoughts.
I suddenly yelped and pulled my hand back, hissing. Blood ran down a long and deep cut right on my palm. Closing my hand is gonna be a pain in the ass...
I sighed weakly and glanced at the now bloody knife. Fully silent for a while I just stood there, watching the blood run down the knife's edge.
I mean...
It looks... Tempting.
Once wouldn't be a problem, right...?
I took the knife hesitantly, watching the silver blade change in the light.
Just one cut...
I put it on my arm after removing the wristguards around my arms and hands and quickly pulled down. Now there was a very visible cut on my wrist, the blood dripping to the floor.
I felt... Weirdly relieved. This isn't right, is it?
And yet it's... Satisfying.
Once more, just for good measures...

One turned to two, two turned to three, three turned to four, and so on.
Eventually my arms were covered in blood, but I felt... Better now.
I took a shaky breath before noticing that something was swfully wrong.
One of the cuts, right in the middle of my wrist, was bleeding dangerously much. I was starting to grow dizzy and tried to cover the cut. It didn't help at all sadly.
I started to panic. I can't just die here!!!
I went over to the phone in a scooting way and reached for the phone. After a few moments I finally had it and gripped it.
The phone immediately slipped out of my grip like soap or something, my hands are too slippery. Eventually I just put the phone on the floor and tried dialing the number. The screen barely reacted, but it worked well enough so that I could finally call Xander.
3 beeps filled the room before he finally picked up. Since I had the phone on speaker I could understand him without holding it in my now trembling hands.
"X-Xander?"
"Yeah, Jub-Jub? You know I'm rather bus-"
"I-I fucked up, y-you need to help me. Please, I don't want to die here...", I whimpered. He needed a few moments before he sighed. "What happened, hunny?", he asked. I very reluctantly told him despite feeling that I was slowly fainting.
Once I was done I suddenly heard rustling. "Okay, you're gonna listen to me now. I'm coming home, okay?", he asked. I whimpered weakly in agreement.
"This shouldn't take long, I'm opening the portal. Can you move or grab a towel?"
"B-Barely..."
"Then at least try, you need to cover the cuts before you'll bleed out."
I nodded, not that he could see, and reached over to a towel. I could touch a small corner and gripped it, pulling it down to me. With shaky hands I wrapped it around my arm. I did the same to the other one with a new towel.
Once that was done, I was pretty much powerless in total. I could barely breathe or see, let alone move.
"Jubilea? Are you still there?", he asked. I weakly glanced to the phone, forcing myself to bring out a quiet "yeah".
"That's good. Did you do as I said?"
"y-yeah..."
"Good. Hopefully that'll teach you to not cut yourself, but we'll see later on. The portal isn't opening, so hold on please."
I whimpered weakly. This was getting too much, I couldn't keep my eyes open much longer.
"Let's talk, Jub. You need to stay awake after all."
I swallowed weakly, panting in pain. "f-fine..."
"Uh... What did you have for breakfast?"
I looked a bit confused at that question before noticing he was trying to keep me awake by keeping me busy.
I weakly replied to that, forcing myself to stare at a spot on the wall.
"Ah, that's nice. And what did you drink?"
"t-tea..."
"Which one?"
"I think chamomile..."
"That's some good tea!"
The portal finally opened, judging by the sounds. The connection broke and I was alone now.
I still just stared at the wall. He's in the basement, I'm on the ground floor.
The blood was running over my palms and fingers, causing me to weakly look down.
That's when it happened.
My eyes closed and I blacked out completely. My body couldn't keep going much longer, so it threw me into a safer state.
The last thing I heard was the door swinging over and Xander letting out a scream.
Then everything was black and silent.