Alex's POV
"WHAT? no ....they can't do that... the...his parents ...they should agree and-"
"they gave the idea in the first place."
"the idea??"
"yeah um.... you know Adam's brother has lungs cancer and he will die if they don't do the surgery.."
"so what does the surgery has to do with Adam?"
"they need lungs... Adam's lungs. it's the only way to save the child."
"save the child? what about Adam?"
"Adam is gonna die anyway."
"what? no there is some hope that he wakes up... he may lose his memories but he'll start a new life and-"
"Alex .. they lied...he won't wake up .. this is an unknown damage ...we've never seen this before .. and even if he does which is once in a billion ,he won't remember and won't learn anything . his life will be misery and he may lose the control of some parts of his bod-....
I can't here anything
I can't see anything
I can't feel anything
just the unfamiliar pain in my ass than I think it shows that I'm on the ground somewhere.
it's black... cold...
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.
.
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"Alex?...Alex Wake up."
my vision is still blurry but I hear a female voice .. the voice that was saying the most horrible words I don't know how many minutes ago.
I can see her ... her eyes... they are black.... so black just like his.
"where is he?" I manage to say.My eyes fill with tears.... the familiar wetness.
"he is here.... you fainted ...like five minutes or so..."
"leave us alone " I say, pushing her away with one hand and steadying myself with another.
"what are you going do?"
"talk to him... go"
"ok"
I sit back on my seat as I hear the door close shut.
I put my hand on his blonde, perfect hair which is sticking out from the bloody cloth, comb it with my fingers... smile at his eyes which I can't see... not now and maybe not ever again.
"hey baby ...you were not here for six months and a lot happened .. not that you're here now but at least I can pretend like you are... I know you're leaving soon but I just thought it's a good time for me to talk to you about what happened in here." I hold his hand... moving my index finger from top to the bottom of his.
"the ambulance was late... me and Carla came with you and I told her what you did .. then she told me everything ...it was all an act? I have to say you are a good actor.... then I lied to my parents .. I knew they wouldn't care so I told them that the school is open for the Christmas and I wanted to study... but I came here and sat with you and held your hand... kissed your nose ... until the Christmas was over and then one day the nurse came and said you had visitors... it was the first time you had one... I mean accept me and Carla.. they were your parents ,me and Carla were both there and we lied that we are just visiting him.
they didn't stay much long... like one hour and then they left... your mother cried and your father was angry.
it was the last time they visited you... I expected it to be more often but I guess they just don't care... just like mine...um... oh and Carla was nearly raped by chad but was rescued by a handsome policemen ...police kid actually .. he's like 20 and a police officer! ..anyways they are together now and chad is in jail again... Kyle's a good guy and is protecting Carla well and since then ,she visited you less but still she did... my personal favorite part is that dani ,josie's boyfriend cheated on her and she has gone crazy since then... and my friend, harry ,sings in a group now... one direction ...they were the third in X-factor plus he is gay too cause he just won't shut up about louis ,his boyfriend... I'm like the only one who knows this except them so I told them our little secret .. they visited you too... oh and the most important thing ... I saved your guitar... I kept sitting next to you and touching the sign of your name... your handwriting is awful baby... I know it cause I stole your books and wrote the lessons in them... so when you wake up and go for studying for the exams which you missed ,you won't have to borrow mine and doodle inside of them...but who was I kidding ? you're leaving ... you're leaving me forever .. and I can't do anything about it but I can do something and that is singing ...I lost my chance for going to X-factor but I have a better listener here." I take out my guitar... his guitar and start
"Staring at the ceiling in the dark
Sheets are in a knot
My heart is like a rock, aye
Pictures flashing by inside my head
I'm hanging by a thread
But I'd do it all again, 'ey
I keep running away, running away
Running away from you
But I can't stand breaking the chains,
Breaking the chains, breaking the chains
It's too good
Cause I know the second you go
Want you to bring it on back, bring it on back
Bring it on back to me
And you know I want your chokehold
Want you to bring it on back, bring it on back
Bring it on back to me
Bring it on back to me
Bring it on back to me
All without your touch I suffocate
I could asphyxiate, but I kind of like the pain, 'ey
Babe, I can smell you on my clothes
I try to stay composed
But I feel the fever grow, grow oh oh
I keep running away, running away
Running away from you
But I can't stand breaking the chains,
Breaking the chains, breaking the chains
It's too good
Cause I know the second you go
Want you to bring it on back, bring it on back
Bring it on back to me
And you know I want your chokehold
Want you to bring it on back, bring it on back
Bring it on back to me
Bring it on back to me
Bring it on back to me
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, hey, ey' eyeh
Me, me, me, meye
Yey, yey
Gonna bring it back ey
Back to me
Cause I know the second you go
Want you to bring it on back, bring it on back
Bring it on back to me
And you know I want your chokehold
Want you to bring it on back, bring it on back
Bring it on back to me
Yey yey yey
Oh, you gotta bring it right back
Bring it on back to me
Bring it on back to me
Oh, oh"
"what are you doing here again?" a deep male voice makes me whip my tears away and look at him... Adam's father.
"I ...um...I wanted to visit him for the last time...um... he was my bbb..best friend." the word is like acid to my tongue.
"they..um... they want to shut the machines off... and-"
"I was just leaving ." his mother enters the room as I stand up to leave him. the 3 meters walk on the cold floor to the door seems like kilometers walking on fire... I'm burning up... I can't tolerate this situation ...how am I going yo move on with my life? kill myself... it's the only way ... I'll meet him in heaven ...or hell I don't know...
but what if we don't see each other in there?
water fills my eyes again but they're different ...harder... more hurtful ...sadder
I lose the control of my feet .. they turn around .. run as fast as they can... I reach his hands... hold them tight ...bring my lips near to his paled one... I can't touch them because of the stupid oxygen mask... so I make my lips travel to his for head... bloody but still his.. my lips touches it...
"I love you Adam... more than anything ...I love you..." I scream... out loud.... I never screamed this loud...
suddenly I feel a cold hand combing my messy hair ...
"I love you too"
YOU ARE READING
Psycho love (evan peters AU)
Fanfiction"I love you" I say , pulling away from his lips "What? No.." He is shaking and trying to pull his hand away from mine "You can't.... We can't...no" he finally says after failing pulling his hand away from my hard gripe "Why ? We can... We do right?"...
