bnha oneshots x male reader !

[hawks] wash away -

- angsty fluff -

you downed the last bottle of alcohol in front of you, hiccups escaping your mouth. the smell of booze intoxicating as your head felt so light that you thought it could detach from your neck any second.

you had been extremely down the past week. the feeling of pain and emptiness the next second was unshakable, you felt like you were stuck in purgatory.

you stumbled to you and your boyfriend hawks' bedroom knocking over some furniture in the way. you were ready to throw yourself on the bed even though you knew keigo would scold you the next morning for it before you caught a glimpse of your figure in your peripheral view.

you dragged your feet to the mirror and stared at yourself in pure disgust. you hadn't been taking care of yourself and tonight, you thought you looked especially revolting.

your hair messed up, cheeks flushed from being intoxicated and your shirt hung loosely on your figure. your hands made its way to your face, gripping and almost clawing at it as tears started steaming down your skin.

"disgusting.. you're fucking- dis- gusting" your voice trembled as you tried your best to fight the tears away.

keigo had been away for the weekend for a mission which he hesitantly went to when he knew you were having a rough time. you still insisted he went in fear of his career being jeopardized by your needs.

you fell down to your knees, clawing and rubbing away violently at your arms, you felt dirty. you hated getting drunk but tonight you just needed to forget.

life had been too exhausting.

you scrambled to the bathroom, ripping every article of clothing from off your body before letting the cold water hit you. you cried in defeat as you tried your best to wash away your disgust.

you kept rubbing and rubbing but the dirtiness wouldn't wear off.

like a man trying his best to way away his sins, you plead to god to release you from this purgatory. why you. what did you ever do to deserve this?

your back against the glass door, you fall seated on the cold tiled floor. your arms and face were red with scratches that stung with every drop of water hitting you.

you brought your knees up to your face and buried yourself in it.

defeated. that's all you could feel.

warm arms enveloped you before the water was cut off. you looked up to see keigo shushing you as he kissed the top of your head. "don't..i'm dirty.. i'm- i can't wash it off." your voice small.

"no you're not. let me take over please?" you nod slowly as sniffles escape you. he notices your scratched up skin and sighs before drying you off with a towel and carrying you to bed.

he grabs a hoodie and a pair of sweats which was originally his but you decided that it belonged to you now. he dresses you before holding you in his embrace.

"just relax okay? you can tell me tomorrow but right now you need to rest. you're drunk."

he learned that when he accident kicked one of the booze bottles on the floor before hurrying over to you. he knew you never liked get drunk so something had to be wrong.

you nodded in defeat as you let him pull the thick covers over your frame. he scoots over to your side and holds you close to him. "you're not dirty. you're good, you're okay. it will be okay." he reassured you.

"i love you always y/n. don't forget that." he hums you urging you to fall asleep.

calmness took over as you melt into his scent and warmness before your consciousness betrayed you.

"rest up baby"