Just Breathe (The Final Book in the Tom Parker's Sister Trilogy)

Chapter 20 - It's Time To Say Goodbye

Maybe 10 more chapters?

-It’s Time To Say Goodbye-

Olive and Natalie were in tears as they walked out of his hospital room, they both hugged me tightly before I stepped into the room myself.

Nothing could have ever prepared me for this day; today I would be losing my fiancé and the father of my baby. I will never have the chance to see his gorgeous brown eyes or to be held in his arms ever again. The thing I miss the most is his voice husky in the mornings, deep but soft. I love him so much, I will never fully let him go. The beeps of the machine filled my ears as soon as I stepped into the room, I slowly walked over to the bed that has been his for the past five months. Not bothering to sit as I stood at his side, taking his hand in mine. I absentmindedly let the tears run freely, this would be my last few minutes with him, in a long time. I pressed the palm of his hand against my wet cheek as I leaned into it trying to comfort myself.

‘Aiden, please wake up please.’ I mumbled looking at his beautiful smooth face.

He didn’t move. Uncontrollable continuous sobs left my small lips

‘Aiden please.’ I begged.

‘I need you, I love you, please please wake up, I want you here in my life, I can’t let them take you!’ I exclaimed the tears falling hard as I kept his palm against my cheek. My cries making my body shake.

‘God dammit Aiden wake up please.’ My voice cracked.

‘Please don’t leave me.’ I whispered.

I felt so vulnerable and alone, anything could happen to me at this moment, I couldn’t care all I wanted was for him to wake up.

I sighed closing my eyes tightly, taking shaky breaths.

I dropped his hand from my cheek holding it with both of my own just standing there.

Why wouldn’t he wake up? Why is he leaving us? Abandoning us? Giving up on us? Was he not happy?

I let go of his hand and walked towards the door.

‘Lillie?’ A voice croaked. My head spun round to look at the bed only for my heart to drop as he hadn’t moved he was still motionless.

I turned my head back around sighing again.

‘Goodbye Aiden, I love you.’ I whispered before pulling the door closed behind me.

I didn’t even think about it, I knew where I wanted to go. I switched off my phone and jumped in a taxi. She was who I needed to see at this moment in time.

I made my way down the mossy paths passing the rows of headstones, I sat down in front of her grave. Trailing my fingers over the stone.

‘Hey baby.’ I whispered, staying quiet out of respect.

‘Daddy will be up there with you soon.’ I choked on tears not just at the thought of Aiden leaving earth but the thought of Cecelia getting to be with her Dad.

I loved coming here, although it reminded me of sad times it had a strange comfort aura about being near her grave. I hadn’t been here in a long time after being caught up with everyone else. She would be turning one in a few months’ time if she was here. I knew it was bad that I wasn’t at the hospital with everyone else, but I just couldn’t do it. I couldn’t be there as they ended the life of the guy I love.

The air was silent except for the odd gust of wind and the noise of distant traffic. The skies were grey just like my mood. Clouds also filled the sky making the whole atmosphere dull and gloomy on this chilly February afternoon. It would most likely be dark soon.

I sat there thinking, I never did anything for my birthday when I realised September was the month that Aiden proposed to me. So I will count that as my birthday present. Aiden was in a coma for his 20th birthday earlier in January. Rethinking over all the memories I had had with Aiden. We met at school while I was sat under a tree, he pushed me into the river at his house and so many others. I was drawn from my thoughts by a voice shouting my name.

‘Lillie!’ My dad’s voice sounded as thudding footsteps made their way in my direction.

My head snapped in the direction from the noise, for me to see Jay, Dad and Tom running towards me.

‘Princess, you have to come back to the hospital.’ Dad said clearly out of breath.

‘What why?’ I asked confused looking at the creepy bright smiles plastered across their faces.

‘Aiden’s alive, he’s awake.’ Jay explained.

‘And he’s asking for you.’ Tom added his point.

He was awake!?

I sprinted off, going back the way they just came.

‘Lillie, wait for us.’ The three tired men shouted from behind me.

Once they caught up we all piled into the car, my body started filling with nerves for some reason I felt so nervous yet excited to be seeing him awake. I fidgeted in my seat not entirely saw what to do. Dad grabbed my hand and gave it a reassuring squeeze sending a smile in my direction.

As soon as we got to the hospital I was the first one out of the car, I had to see him! I ran through reception the lady had a large smile on her face. The nurse who I have become close to opened the door for me as I ran towards it.

‘AIDEN!’ I exclaimed running to him throwing my arms around his body that had been propped up, cuddling into his chest.

He pulled me up on to his lap, burying his head into my hair and neck.

‘Lillie.’ He breathed. His voice was croaky and rough from not talking in 5 months yet still has his soft undertone.

I leaned back looking into his brown eyes, a massive smile replaced my sad, distraught features. His hand held my cheek as his eyes roamed my face. I couldn’t have been happier in that moment! He was awake and was going to live, instead of having to plan a funeral I could actually plan my wedding.

‘Lillie, you look like you’ve barely slept.’ He spoke his voice laced with concern. The voice I loved so much, I closed my eyes ignoring his comment and leant into his hand.

The sudden sensation of his lips on mine was immense, after the shock wore off I responded to the slow kiss that was full of love.

‘I missed you so much.’ I admitted once we pulled away.

‘I missed you too.’ He replied.

I turned around and sat in between his legs leaning back against him.

For the first time in five months, I felt happy and safe soon falling into some much needed sleep.