It has been a month since I've been here but it feels like forever, I can't keep up with the life style of all these people. It's June now and I'll only be able to get home around January, what a great torture. But then again, I have great friends like Ana and Lucy. At least they aren't as bad as others I can't mention, speaking of wish I'll go check up on them. The time reads seven pm, I'll come back around nine.
So I did just that, got out of my room and one room away from mine, I was at their door. I didn't even bother to knock, I just went in. I find them both eating their dinner, Ana at her study table with a book on the other hand and a sandwich at the other. Lucy is sitting in her bed with her laptop in front of her and a sandwich at hand.
"Hello girls." I great them as I close the door behind me.
"I should teach you how to knock." Lucy mocks me.
"Then I'll have to teach you some manners, I'm hungry guys aren't you gonna invite me for dinner.?"
"Manda, you are never hungry. In fact I've never seen you eat in the last three weeks I've known you. " Ana says.
" I eat, some times." Come to think of it, I've never really eaten a proper meal. Mom would kill me if she found out. But how can I eat when my mind is always occupied by a certain somebody.
"OK, enough about food. You can have my sandwich." Lucy offers me her food as she looks at me like I'm some hungry child she's feeding.
"OK Lu, out with it." I free her to say what's on her mind.
"OK, so I heard that Mason's father is getting married this weekend." She gets out with it and both her and Ana are waiting for me for some kind of conformation.
"Why are you guys looking at me like that?"
"So, are you going?"Ana asks.
"Of course not, why would I go?" I ask them.
"Because you and Mason where like buddy buddy, and you're also friends with Troy. " Lucy states as if it's that obvious.
" Guys, I'm going to no wedding. Mason is probably gonna take Hailey."I say with a low voice at the end, hoping they didn't hear me.
"Well I would like to go to that wedding, them glamor and all the celebrities."Lucy fantasizes about the wedding.
Would Mason really take Hailey? I mean I wouldn't care and all, but he said that he had nothing to do with her. But who am I to question his actions, he's his own man and he does whatever he pleases. And seeing them together early on just switched off all the little feelings I had for him.
"What about Troy then? " Ana questions me, taking me out of my fantasies.
" What about Troy? "
" He obviously likes you, and he's nothing like Mason."
"Can we stop talking about them, I can't think straight now."
They both look at me funny then they look at each other smiling with some knowing smile. But I ignore them and continue eating my sandwich, if I listen to them I'll end up losing my mind. The last thing I wanna do is talk about Mason, or Troy for that matter. I've had my share of unhappiness and I think it's enough.
An hour later I was in my room getting ready to sleep when a knock was at my door. The time is nine thirty, who could it be at this time of an hour. Without asking I instantly open the door and I'm meet with a drunkard Mason, oh just great.
"Hello." He says with a big smile on his face.
"Mason, what are you doing here?" He stumbles inside my room. "Mason." I close the door behind him so no one sees him. When I turn around he's sleeping on my bed.
"Mason, wake up." I try to wake him with no success.
"I need to sleep, I want to sleep."He simply says and that alone gets me to leave him alone. He probably hasn't slept ever since the news of his father's wedding.
So I do just that, I leave him alone so he can get some sleep. I guess I'll have the sofa for the night. I've got class tomorrow, so the least I could do is get some rest.
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The ringing of my phone wakes me up, and it can't be my alarm cause it's not half past seven yet. When I look at the caller ID it's an unknown number, I look at my bed and Mason is still sleeping. So I answer my phone so it doesn't wake him.
"Hello." I immediately answer.
"Amanda, it's Molly. Have you seen Mason anywhere? We've been looking for him all night and even Hailey doesn't know where he is. Please tell me he's with you?" Molly's panicked voice sounds in my ear, she sounds like she hasn't had any sleep.
"Molly, calm down OK." I try to reason with her.
" I can't calm down when my brother is missing, Amanda you're our last hope. Troy said he can't be with you but I just had to check." Oh my God she's crying.
" Molly please don't cry, Mason is here with me. He's OK." I reassure her.
"Really, he's there?" Just as I was about to answer her, my phone is snatched from me.
"Stop fuckin looking for me as if I'm some kid Molly, I can damn well take care of myself. " With that he hangs up the phone, then he hands it over to me. I look at him and he looks back at me." I don't need a lecture from you Amanda, I have a killer headache. "
With that said I move to go to the bathroom as I leave him on my bed with his headache. I take a quick shower cause I know that if I start arguing with him I'll miss my classes, after taking a shower and moisturizing myself, I notice that I didn't take any clothes with me.
Now I have to go out there in nothing but a towel, just great. I open the door slowly, then I pick to see what he's doing. He's lying on the bed with his eyes closed, this could be my chance. I try to sneak to the closet but it's too late, he has opened his eyes and trust me when I say they are wide open.
He's looking at me, like he's looking at all of me. It's as if he's seeing me for the first time. "Can you please leave, I wanna get dressed." I surprise him by saying.
But he doesn't say anything, he stands up from the bed and he starts walking towards me. I think I'm shaking and I'm about to shit myself, why is he coming towards me and not going towards the door.
He stands in front of me then he looks at me from the bottom up, my braided hair dripping of water. He brings his hand to my neck and he starts massaging it, stupid as I am I close my eyes and enjoy his touch. My new addict, him and his touch.
"Mason..." I say his name, I don't know if I was trying to stop him or I was enjoying it.
"Tell me you want it just as much as I want it." He talks to me for the first time this morning, but then again him talking makes me reconsider what we are about to do. He was with Hailey not so long ago, I can't do this.
Just as he was about to kiss me I push him away. "I can't do this."
"What's wrong?"
"What do you take me for Mason? Not so long ago you were with Hailey, and now you want to be with me. How stupid would that make me? "
" Amanda come on, Hailey was nothing. "
" And I'm something? I think you should go Mason." He lets go of me then he moves backwards.
"You don't mean that." He tries to reason with me.
"You are just here because you need shelter, not because of me. Please leave." I ask him again. He takes another step back.
"You know what, you are right, I only needed a place to stay since Hailey wasn't around. I would never be with a simple girl like you from the rurals. " With that he storms out of the room leaving me with tears rolling out of my eyes.
