Deeper than death

Part 9

-SPRING (2017)

How to deal with it?
Evening comes again, the worst part of the day,
Even someone would  listen, I have nothing to say,
It won't cure my world, I need no words
But a death to save me.
My eyes are tired of crying and looking
All these things that scare me,
A new spring will come, new sun will shine,
But it will be the same sun that makes me wanna die.
Not strong enough to look people in the eyes,
And they are not kind enough to stop my cries,
I guess it was my fault,
Bad things are happening because I was born.

I want to go to the river,
To feel it's power, it would cure me,
My dirt heart would soul this pure water,
But I would stay only till I stop breathe.

How to deal with it?
This pressure on my lungs hurts more than my scars,
Nothing can heal me but the end,
No, I can't deal with this agony,
I really wish I was dead.
Hopefully, I'll be soon
I will bring it here, I will bring my the end,
I will bring my the end.

-SOULMATE (2017)

Everybody needs someone to love,
So I chose to love metal,
He doesn't mind fact that I'm insane
Because he everybody respect the same,
People easily get bored of me,
But he stayed and made me continue to live,
He gave me the power to survive it all,
You will stay my the only one, Metal!

Never believed I'll be the bride in the black wedding dress,
Nor that I'll find my soulmate that year
When everything started to fall,
I felt life inside when I heard your symphony,
Your name is carved on the brightest place in my soul, Metal!

We share one trade - we both have several faces,
He switch from powerfull to touching,
From brutal to doom,
But every side makes him even more spectacular
Cause he is a ruler of the angel melodies and the beasts tombs.

I can share my voice with the others for a while,
But my the biggest pleasure is to sing for him,
Before I met him I thought he is evil, they said it,
If I listened to them, that would be my the worst sin.

The only good thing inside of this demolished field is you,
You're warming my heart with your flame,
Bringing me back when I'm on the edge,
You never dissapointed me or betrayed me,
You gave sence to  my destiny
Rissing horns, let energy all around to crawl,
All Hail to the One of Them All - Metal!

I need your melody, don't mind are you soft of brutal,
Because you never hurt anyone,
Comfort my soul again, Metal.

-CREATURES OF INSANITY (2017)

Time to die together in this black mud,
Now it's my turn to break inside your mind,
To search for a sanity now it's too late,
Cause every cell inside of me is filled with the hate.

My invariable attitudes and my intact soul
I am still grieving for cause you ate it all,
But even you're intent of breaking it appart
I swore to heaven that you'll never get my artistic heart.

Face to face, we finally meet,
Those evil preachers inside of me,
Explain to me how I lost my way.
Oh surreal fools, why you are so cruel,
No chance to win, you changed all the rules,
Even I die today I need to be brave,
Creatures, come to light,
I am ready for my very last fight.

Show me my demons, show me my demons,
I wanna see them, I wanna beat them,
Show me my demons, show me my demons,
I wanna see them, wanna eat them for a dinner.

Not afraid anymore of going to hell,
This unpredictable life is what makes me feel scared,
On this treachery table is served your head
If that's too eccentric for your civility,
Then why you drove me mad?!