To the End of Infinity

Ch. 12 - Falsified Betrayal

You returned to campus the next morning and continued having a regular day. It was quite the change considering the past few days and weeks of constantly having something to take care of. To a certain extent, it was needed, however it felt strange not being around Gojo since the two of you were nearly inseparable for the past forty-eight hours.
Your mind constantly focused on the "we'll see" he gave the night before. You were trying to analyze his facial expression, read behind the expression to see if he really meant it or if he was letting his fears get in the way. 

You tried your best to shrug off any emotion as well as the thought of Gojo. You shared your side of it, the ball was in his field now and there's nothing you could do about it. 
You prepared for the week ahead and began to crawl into bed, lights off and eyelids shut. You wondered what the week would bring considering the Kyoto students would soon arrive for the sister school event.

The next morning, you awoke early as usual to grab some breakfast before Gojo would interrupt your morning with the first years. 
The morning dew dripped off the plants and the chill in the early September air as the sun peeked its head over the horizon. You loved this time of day seeing as the world was still quiet, only the sound of morning birds and crickets filled the air, a light fog coating your path. 

Something then suddenly felt different, something that made your hair stand on end. You knew exactly what it was. 

Kage was leaning on a nearby tree in front of the dining hall, this time dressed in something less scantily clad but you still became uncomfortable by her presence. Despite what she had done, she still gave you mixed emotions. The two of you had been together for nearly ten years and that can't just simply be thrown away very easily.

"Good morning," her voice was sweet. It was as if she changed her demeanor to fit what you wanted...the old her back. 

"What do you want, Akui?" You tried to keep a hostile tone in your voice, your facial expression flat, despite your heart beginning to be faster by the minute.

"I came to check on you...and what I proposed the other night," she hopped over in your direction, putting on quite the show as "normal" Kage. Her hands were clasped behind her back cutely, a petite smile on her face as she looked up at you. 

"I don't know what you've been up to since Christmas Eve last year, but I don't want any part of it," you shook your head. "You're behaving as if you didn't skewer me like a kabob." You crossed your arms and tried to maintain a dominant stance. She pouted.

"Y/N...this isn't about what happened back then. This is about you and me," she insisted her look now turning to one of sadness. 

"You threw that away," you replied quickly in your dominant tone, your mouth going dry. She leaned a bit closer to you, forcing you to take a step back until you were against the outer wall of the hall. 

"You don't care about me anymore?" She continued her pout, still caging you against the wall with her sweet, little hands innocently behind her back. 

"Akui," you sighed, feeling tears well up in your throat, "a piece of me will always love you."

"Then it's still possible," she smiled, "don't you want to feel better?" Those words triggered something within you. She had no idea that the past few weeks at this school were better than anything you had felt in an incredibly long time. 

"Sometimes it goes through my head," you admitted, "I think about the days when we used to live in that stuffy dorm room. I'd be busy studying or doing something boring and you'd suddenly enter and just light up the space," you smiled to yourself.
With your words it was as if something behind Kage's expression had changed. You chuckled to yourself the more you thought of your relationship with her, more bad suddenly being highlighted than good in your memories.
"You fucking loved me then, and I fucking loved you, too," you choked a bit, swallowing hard to keep it all back. "I mean, of course it hurt when you left, of course it fucking hurt. It hurt like nothing in the world sometimes... You leaving that day to be with Suguru hurt more than the sword in my back...and I think I died twice that day.  So, to answer your question, god no. Of course I don't want to feel better. Can you fucking imagine?" You scoffed with a hint of sarcasm in your voice.