Hopeless Thoughts

Chapter 1

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I wake up to hear the voice of one of my best friends,Michelle, yelling that her and some of our other friends were here at my house.
A pillow is thrown at my head,"Wake up! Get off of your lazy arse your friends are here,"Michelle yells at me while I just groan. "Get up or so help me God I will cut off your dick and attach it to your forehead and then you can be a unicorn," she says being completely serious. I jump up whilst laughing.
"Okay, I'm up Michelle, don't get your panties in a wad."
I walk down the stairs along with Michelle to the living room where my friends are spread out among the four couches.
"Hey Colt, why did you run out?I told you I would give you a ride home." Michelle said. I didn't day anything but remained quiet. "Was it Perry Lee?" I looked her straight in the eyes. She then only said two words. "Room now." Michelle said leaving no rooms for questions. After just having to walk down the stairs, I walk up the stairs with Michelle breathing down my neck. I open my room door and immediately I am told to sit as if I am a dog. I take a seat while Michelle walks to the bathroom and pulls out the first aid kit. "Wrist," she tells me her eyes full of anger. I bring my wrist up to her and she grabs it and commences to take all my bracelets off until she comes to see the scared and bloody tissue that is my wrist. She only huffs and begins to work, cleaning out the cuts, applying first aid spray, and then covering them with band-aids. I immediately begin to put my bracelets back on to cover the bandages. I look over to see Michelle looking out the window. "You know you don't have to do it. I don't care how many times you tell me it helps you cope with the pain of this world. I'm here for you with arms right open why can't you accept that it kills me to see you doing this to yourself. At least promise me you are gonna try, promise me that next time you'll put the blade down, can you please Colt please promise me that because I can't make you stop that's your decision."
"I promise and thanks." I said quietly.
Michelle turned around and gave me a weak smile.
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Are y'all glad that it's almost Friday because I for one am. Guys please follow me can we get me to twenty in a week and I'll post an extra chapter. Y'all have a good weekend and make good choices!!!
-thoughtthief