Drew/ Rafe imagines ;)

What a night

"It's not fair." I sobbed into Drew's shoulder, holding him tight. "I know it's not fair" He said, rubbing my back. Now also crying.

I had be diagnosed with chronic pain and chronic fatigue at the age of 17. Drew had been by my side threw it all never leaving. But after having so many people walk out of my life because of my illnesses it was alway in the back of my mind. The possibility of him finally having enough of the "sick girl". It was rare for me to break down from the stress of my Illnesses. Always trying to be positive and look at bright side of things. Not wanting people to see me as weeks. But tonight wasn't that night. I was hanging with my best friend Drew. To be honest we were never just friends. We casually hooked up every once and a while or made out occasionally. It was almost like friends with benefits except that we were actually best friends.

The night started off normal I was in my apartment that I shared with Drew. Painting drinking some wine. Something I did almost every weekend. But my body had other ideas. It started out as just my normal leg shaking. But it soon turned into my shoulder and then my jaw. I was having another full body tremor. Doing my breathing techniques and eating a banana. I started painting again. But soon enough my hand jerked again messing up my painting. That's when I broke down. Throwing my brush across the room. I couldn't even do the one thing I loved without my body putting up a fight. "FUCK" I screamed. Drew came running out of his room. "Are you ok what happened?" He asked looking at me crying clenching my knees up to my chest. "Hey, hey, hey, it's ok." He said picking me up and bringing me to the couch. "No it's not I can't even do the one thing I love with out my body saying a big fuck you. I'm so exhausted no matter how much sleep I get. Something is always in pain from the second I wake up. I'm so sick of this shit!" He just hugged me allowing me to just let it out. It wasn't anything new to him he had been in this same position with me a hundred times over the years. "Want to go for a drive?" He asked already knowing the answer. "Yes please." I new where he was going. It was to a small Mountain about 30 minutes from our house. A place we went often. Our spot to just talk, watch a storm roll in, or in this case to yell at the world with out getting a nose complaint.

"You ready" Drew asked with two water bottles in hand. It was only a half kilometre to the top. I just nodded my head in response.

"We are at the top let it all out!" Drew said.
That's all I needed to hear before I yelled.
"FUCK THIS BULL SHIT! WHY ME HUN? WHY THE FUCK ME?" Throwing my middle fingers to the sky. The tears started up again me now crying while yelling. "IM SO SICK OF THIS SHIT! I DONT WANT TO BE THE SICK GIRL ANYMORE. YOU TOOK SO MUCH AWAY FROM ME. YOU TOOK MY HAPPINESS, FRIENDS, YOU DERAILED MY FUCKEN LIFE! I collapsed onto the ground balling my eyes out. "You fucking bitch" I whispered the last part. "YOU FUCKING BITCH. Drew yelled sitting beside me wrapping his arm around me. "It's not fair Drew." "I know it's not fair. I hate seeing you go threw this and if I could take it away I would without hesitation." I looked up at him noticing that he was now also crying. "Why are you crying?" I asked whipping his cheeks with my thumb. "Because shit Y/N I hate seeing you go threw this. I hate seeing this beautiful girl go threw so much pain that she didn't deserve to deal with. You are so strong and you care so much for others. Always making sure that they are ok before you even think about how you are doing. You have gone threw so much but yet you keep a smile on your face. making jokes and laughing about it. I hate knowing that the girl I've been falling in love with since I was 18 thinks that she will be a burden to someone because of her limitations. That she would hold someone back on living their live to the fullest. Because I can tell you right now I have been living my best life since I met you. You were the one that helped me chase my dreams of acting. You have never been a burden and never will be." Drew rambled on going from looking at the view to looking at me. "You love me?" Is all I could get out before I started crying again. "God yes" he said letting out a quiet laugh. "And I know this isn't the most ideal time to let you know that. But I want you to know that you are so loved and cherished not only by me but so many other people. "Drew?" "Yes" "I have been falling in love with you from the second I met you. God you have no idea how many times I have wanted to tell you. but was scared you wouldn't feel the same and our friendship would be ruined. Because I don't know what I would do without you." Tears running down both our cheeks. But they went sad ones any more they were happy ones. "I want you to know I have never look at you or thought of you as the sick girl. You have an illness but your aren't your illness" Drew said pulling me into him looking into my eyes. "Can I please kiss you now?" I asked smirking at him. "Is that even a question?" He said finally kissing me.