I am His, He is Mine

Nightmares

It had been two days since the incident with the family and my nightmares have been insane. I didn't bother Shoto with them, knowing that his birthday was so close. I haven't been able to really have a good nights rest after that night, not naturally anyway. I groan as I look at myself in the mirror, seeing I looked a mess. I haven't been to class at all since then, but who would want to. My nightmares were awful if you asked me; each time I closed my eyes, I heard and saw the little boy and his family burning in the car before they all walked towards me asking why I didn't save them. Why I froze up like an idiot and a coward. It. Was. Awful.
I sigh as I decided to finally come out of my room for the first time in 48 hours, deciding on a nice hot shower. Once that was done, I just left my hair down and unbrushed, one of Shoto's hoodies draped over me. The dorms were quiet as everyone was in class, the silence almost deafening. I fix me a bowl of fruit before sitting on the couch, turning on TV. As I continued to watch more and more TV, I felt my eyes begin to fall. I was honestly happy that I was able to sleep naturally, considering I've had to take loads of sleep meds lately.

"Help me! Please help me!" I shoot up at the words, my heart racing. The only thing was- I wasn't at the dorms- I was back at the scene. "I'm com-" no sound. I can't even respond to the child. My eyes grow wider as I watch the car bursts into flames, my eyes welling with tears. 'Not again...' I cry to myself. I try to move but my body is stuck in place, my anxiety growing. Fist I can't make a sound and now I can't make a move. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck!

"Why did you let us die? Why didn't you save us? I cried out for you!" In the blink of an eye, a fiery shadow flew past me, screaming at me as it did. I shook my head as I screamed out, even though my voice was not there. 'I'm so sorry! I tried!' I respond inside my head. I start to freak out as I feel my skin start to burn, my flesh slowly charing. "No please! I'm sorry!" I yell, the burned family standing in front of me. "Now you get to feel what we felt because you were too scared to HELP US!" I feel the flames grow hotter at his words, my body on fire. I start to try and throw the fire off of me, even trying to use my quirk but it was no use. "Y/N! Y/N!"

"Y/N! Y/N!" I jerk awake as I feel water splash on my face, panting heavily as I clutch my heart. I fell my arms, wincing slightly as I look down and notice crazy red scratch marks. "Y/N! Dude are you okay?!" Denki asks as he looks at me. I look around me as I notice a few of my classmates have surrounded me. 'I was sleeping. It was just a nightmare,' I think to myself as I slow my breathing. "Y-yea. J-just a really bad dream," I say softly, my words trailing off. "Wanna talk about it?" Midoriya asks me as he sits down, his hand on my knee. I look at it before looking at him. "Not at the moment, but thank you. All of you," I say as I look at my friends. I internally frown as I notice Shoto wasn't there. They all nod as they go about their days, leaving me on the couch. I place my hands over my face, taking in a deep breath. "Fucking hell," I mutter as I stand up, walking up to my room.
I rummage through my drawer before I find my vape pen, sliding on my shoes. I walk back out to the balcony, throwing up my hood as I take a hit. I had stopped smoking when I got with Shoto, but these last two days have brought the urge back on. I let out a deep sigh as I feel the cool winter air hit my face, blowing out a large cloud of smoke. "Blossom?" I jump at the sound of Shoto's voice, shoving my vape in my pocket as I turn to face him. "Hi," I say softly as I turn back around and look out to the horizon. I sink into Shoto as he wraps his arms around me, my arms going over his instinctively. "It's so cold. Please come inside," he says after a few moments. I just shake my head, hugging him tighter. I didn't want to be inside, it made it feel like my skin was in flames.
"Why not, kitten?" He asks softly, turning me to face him. "Because. I just, I can't," I frown as I look at my feet. "Midoriya told me that when everyone got in, they found you screaming and scratching. Is that true?" he says after about five minutes. I felt my heart drop and my body shiver slightly. I just nod, biting my lip. "Let me see. Please?" He says softly as he already grabbed my arm, sliding up my sleeve. I felt hot tears streak my face as he ran his fingertips over my skin. "What happened? Why?" He asked, in almost an annoyed tone. "It wasn't like that. I had a nightmare and it felt real, okay?" I say in almost a snippy tone. I take a breath as I apologize for the attitude, turning away from him again. I take a hit from my vape, just wanting to forget about the whole thing.
"You've started smoking again," Shoto says behind me. I rub the bridge of my nose, letting out a soft groan. "Yea. I have. Sorry that it's one of the few things that's helping me right now. I could take up drinking or even worse, but I didn't. Please just, these last two days have been fucking hell for me. I haven't been able to sleep, I've pretty much drank an entire bottle of NyQuil just to be able to go to bed, Shoto. So I'm so fucking sorry that me smoking bothers you because I didn't want to worry you," I say in a harsh tone, pushing past him as I walk inside. I didn't bother to apologize this time, feeling slightly agitated.
I sigh as I slide down my wall, rubbing my face. I throw my pen back into my drawer, looking out my window. I hear a knock at my door, rolling my eyes. "Come in," I respond as I kept my eyes on the window. I hear the door shut before I see the familiar hair color sits in front of me. There was a silence between us, one that was weirdly awkward. "What is it, Sho?" I ask as I look at him. His eyes were red, which indicates he had been crying. I sigh as I pull him into a hug, kissing his neck softly. "Look, I didn't mean to go off like that. It's just, I still can't get the picture of them dying out of my head," I admit to him as I look at my hands. "Then let's talk about it, please. I hate seeing you this way," he mutters as he grabs my hands.
I let out a deep sigh before I work up the courage to speak. "It felt so real... one minute I was watching TV and then the next, I was back at the scene of the accident," I pause to take a breath, wiping away my tears. "I could hear the little boy screaming for me to help him. His voice filled with fear, but I-I couldn't move. I was frozen and I had no voice. It was awful. I-I then watched the car burn and watch them..." I take another break as I look up to my ceiling, inhaling and exhaling. I feel Shoto grip my knee tightly as I pause. I let out a final breath before I continue. "Then they started walking towards me and almost, taunting to me. They asked me why I didn't save them. Why I couldn't save them all before I started to feel my skin burn. I literally felt like my skin was charing and burning off. That's why I have scratches. I was trying to get the fire off me," I finish, my eyes burning with tears. I could feel my chest rattle as I tried to calm down, Shoto's hands grabbing mine. I feel his thumbs caress my hands, my eyes meeting his. "Thank you," is all he says as he pulls me closely, kissing my neck softly. I just cry into his chest, gripping his shirt tightly.
"Shh, it's okay," he whispers as he rubs my back, hugging me tighter as I slowly start to calm my breathing. "I love you so much. I am so sorry that this is happening. But please know, you're not alone," he whispers as he kisses my temple. "Please don't leave me," I whisper as I look at him. He just nods as we get up and go to my bed, wrapping myself around him as we laid down. We lay there in silence, Shoto softly humming in my ear as he rubs my arm and legs; my eyes slowly closing as I started to drift off to sleep.