His Chance

Hailey- Chapter 6

I love this man so much. I know we haven't known each other very long and I know that there are going to be some huge hurdles in our future that we are going to need to overcome but right now, right in this moment, none of that matters to me.  This is the man I love, this is the man I want to build a future with.

He's so thoughtful. He laid a couple of towels on the bed to protect the sheets and he's rubbed some lubricant on me to make things easier.  The fact that he's been patient enough with me to wait for our wedding night to make love to me says enough in and of itself. He really loves me. I believe that with my whole heart and soul. Now, he is lying atop me with his body positioned between my legs and I can feel him up against me. I'm nervous for what's about to happen but I'm excited at the same time. The fact that we are husband and wife and that God has blessed our union has put me in the best place possible for this moment. I'm so ready to give myself completely to this man.

He's kissing me and rubbing up against me and then I can feel him start to enter me. It feels good yet at the same time it hurts. I can't explain it. My hands are holding onto his arms and I'm holding him so tightly. I know that he's taking things slow with me and I love him for that.

"You ok baby", he asks me, and I shake my head up and down to indicate that I am.

He is resting on his elbows and he's watching me. He's looking directly into my eyes and he's moving his hips very slowly as he slides deeper and deeper inside me. Wow, this hurts. I hold my breath and close my eyes and continue to hold onto him tightly.

He's moaning and making the sexiest noises and I can't believe that this is finally happening. I let out a little whimper and he stops and says, "Am I hurting you, baby?".

"Just a little", I lie, "it's ok", I say.

He doesn't move at all except to stroke the side of my face and kiss me. "Do you want to stop?", he asks me.

I shake my head to answer no and he smiles. He kisses me again and starts the rhythmic movements once again.

"You gotta breathe, baby", he says to me, and I stop holding my breath. "That's better", he says, "just stay with me Hailey, ok. I promise it won't always hurt. I promise it will get much better. I've got you".

"Uh huh", I say, "I know. I love you Chance. I completely trust you", I tell him.

Something about what I said gives him a sense of relief and he smiles at me and begins moving in and out of me once again. This time, I do as he says and continue breathing and I just concentrate on looking at him. His breathing has quickened and he's making such sexy sounds and he tells me how good it feels to be inside me.

His movement has gotten the slightest bit faster but I can tell he's trying his best not to be too rough. It is still very uncomfortable for me but I don't care. I love this man and the fact that he waited for me; I don't want to disappoint him for that. I reach up and stroke the side of his face and tell him that I love him. My declaration appears to affect him and he moans my name, "Oh Hailey". He continues to thrust into me and to moan my name, "Oh baby", he says and his mouth falls open and he gasps and he looks directly into my eyes and I understand immediately what is happening.

"I'm cumming baby", he says and he looks so handsome and so sexy and so happy.

His movement slows down and soon it completely stops and he just lays atop me so still. He's holding me and kissing the side of my neck and his breathing is starting to slow down. He is still inside of me and I don't move at all either. We just lay there in each other's arms like this for the next few minutes. I love being this close to him.

"I'm gonna slide out now", he says, and he pulls his body up and out of me and it really hurts and I gasp.

"Sorry", he says and lays down next to me on the bed. I close my legs together and turn on my side so that my back is up against his front and he pulls me into his arms. "Sorry baby. You ok?".

I shake my head and say, "Uh huh. I'm fine". He nuzzles the side of my neck as he runs his hands softly along my breasts. "Was it ok for you?", I ask him. "I'll get better at this, I promise".

"It was the best Hailey, I swear. I know you're worried about it but I've never had sex with someone that I've loved before. It's different. I made love to you. Only you. You were worth waiting for".

I turn my body so that I'm facing him and I smile when I see those beautiful green eyes looking at me with such love.

"You were worth waiting for Chance".

He kisses me softly on the lips and strokes my hair. He pulls me into him so that I'm lying on his chest and he kisses the top of my head.

"I love you Hailey Thompson", he says, and he closes his eyes and falls asleep. I just lie there, ever so still. Partly because I love the feeling of lying in his arms and I don't want to wake him. Also, I'm kinda afraid to move.  I'm very sore and it's very wet between my legs and I worried that it's blood. I know I need to go check and get myself cleaned up but I just want to lie here in my husband's arms for a little longer. I listen to him breathing and I feel so loved and safe in his arms. I think about tomorrow and the thought of him making love to me again and it makes me smile. I know it's probably going to hurt again but it doesn't scare me. I just want to be with him. I want to be with him in every way possible and not waste one minute of our time together. We only have a little over a week to be like this before I'll be flying home from London alone and I don't have any idea right now how long we will be apart. I'm going to kiss him and hold him and make love with him as much as he wants because we have to make our time together count. I think about what tomorrow will be like and the next day when we fly to London. I wonder what it's going to be like?  I hope I fit in with his life over there.  I wonder where we'll live?  My mind is consumed with so many thoughts and unanswered questions that it exhausts me. I close my eyes now, as well, and I soon fall asleep myself.