chapter 4 : smoke

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Marnie's POV:
I ran out the club, phone in hand, stumbling a little due to the alcohol that I'd drank that evening. my legs felt tired from all the dancing and my face felt sticky from a mixture of makeup, hairspray and sweat. it was about 1am and I wanted to get back to my apartment as quick as possible. I wasn't thinking straight. why in the hell did I let Luke buy me a drink? what on earth going through my mind?

he was famous and probably a complete dick. ugh. it was a stupid mistake and I just wanted out of that awful club and back to my own apartment. alone.

I called a taxi and waited outside while smoking a fag. I breathed out the musty smoke and typed a badly worded text to Kelle telling her I was going home. outside it was cold but, due to the alcohol, I couldn't really feel it. I was numb, drunk, stressed and confused. I mean, yeah, Luke was cute but I just didn't want another relationship right now.

especially one in a band.

I tried to push his beautiful azure eyes out of my mind and focus on the clouds I was inhaling and exhaling. when I smoked, I really focused on it and nothing else. I smoked to relieve stress and try and ease whatever pain I was feeling. it was such a luxurious feeling as the throaty smoke filled my lungs and it made my fingertips tingle. it was the main thing I did to forget.

the taxi picked me up about 10 minutes later and I stubbed my fag, wobbling over to the black car. on the ride all I could think of were his eyes. those eyes. but I knew it was a bad idea to start falling for someone in my state. I probably wouldn't remember tomorrow anyway. it was probably just the liquid courage that made me want to talk to him. yeah.

Luke's POV:
I walked outside to see Mike and he was smoking a joint with a few of his other friends and his arm was snaked around this girls waist. "hey, dude. I'm gonna go now if that's ok. you, uh, have fun." I patted him on the back. he turned to me with bloodshot eyes and nodded, booping my nose. "ok cutie pie don't wait up!" he smirked at me then slapped the girls ass. I just rolled my eyes and walked away as our hotel was only, like, two blocks away so I figured I'd just clear my head and not bother with a taxi. it's hard to admit but I was kind of jealous of mikey. he seemed to have no problem with one night stands but I guess I kind of wanted something a bit more, you know, long term I guess.

when I arrived back at the hotel, I kicked my converse off and slumped on the bed in just my boxers and one of those free towel robes you get from the hotel. thank god I wasn't sharing with anyone and we all got our own rooms. I don't think I could deal with hearing the boys have sex while I was there thinking about just one girl.

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A/N: so the chapters are gonna be a bit longer I hope because I just realised how short they were :/ I hope you enjoyed this even though not much happened but yea :) just one more week and I'm out of this shithole!!! :D

~mimi xo

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