Free Fall

Silent Calls for Help

Me: *Sigh*

It was only for a second that I stopped smiling and had a gloomy look on the face. The one I tried to hide soo badly and no one ever noticed. I wasn't the best in hiding it but the people simply didn't care much about it. 

Tokoyami: What's up Midoriya?

Me: Nothing.

Tokoyami: I am seriously looking forward to the training with Hawks!

Good that he is way yo excited to ponder over my sight.

Did he see me stop smiling?

Probably...

Lets vover this up.

No need to ruin another persons day.

Me: Yeah me too!

I didn't know why Hawk would like someone as useless as myself. Besides Tokoyami he also put me on the name of candidates for interning he wanted to have. It didn't made much sense to me. The sport festival was a disaster and my last move was not meant to make me victories... no... I tried to kill myself back then. Only that no one really saw it. All they saw was Todoroki and how splendid he did. As for me, I was just the kid that broke all his bones and risk his life for nothing.

Well I wanted to die so it wasn't for nothing.

Right now me and Tokoyami were standing right in front of the heroes agency. I knew for a fact that my bird friend actually was soo excited about meeting Hawks since it was his favorite hero and I guess birds of the same feathee flok alike. It was good for him being here but such a nuisance for me.

Tokoyami: Let's go in!

Me: Wait a minute! I wanna take a picture of us!

Tokoyami: Good idea!

No...

It's just so that I can continue faking my happiness.

I might be depressed and life definitely is meaningless for me but not for you.

I took my phone out and made a picture of Tokoyami in front of the agency. In return Tokoyami then took a picture from me and I did a selfie of us both. It was a moment I wanted people to forget and since I knew that this would probably be the best way to end my meaningless and miserable life, I decided to at least record the end and write a letter later explaining everything. After all my dead wasn't someone's fault but my own choice. I hated to think that someone would blame themselves for it.

Me: All done. Let's go in.

Despite me being soo tired and just wanting to rest for eternity, I dragged my body into the hero agency. I never got some rest. I never slept well too. All Might was pushing me with One for All to my physical limits. There was Bakugo testing my patience and will power and at the end there was also Aizawa pushing us even beyond our limits physically and mentally. There was no room for rest and I was soo tired from it. It wasn't as if a quirkless person who suddenly miraculously getting a quirk would manage to get to the top or anything. There was really no point in me training this hard.

It was the moment we stepped into the agency that someone came over to us. The woman looked like a secretary. I mean she was completely formally dressed and had a tablet with her. She was definitely working for Hawks since she also had a visible key card hanging around her neck. However what gave her mostly away was the fact that she just came out of an elevator and came straight to us.

Secretary: Tokoyami and Midoriya?

Us: Yes.

Secretary: Oh great to have you here. I am Jean Hawks assisten secretary. Mister Hawks would loved to be here but he was suddenly called out for help.

Me: Nice to meet you.

Tokoyami: Yeah nice to meet you.

Jean: Great now please follow me, I'll give you a quick tour around.

She looked like a very stressed and busy woman seeing as how she immediately started to push us around. Tho I could tell that she was just working with Hawks who was the number 3 hero and also the fastes hero. It seemed as speed was important here. She needed to keep up with the guy after all.

Not only that but for the first time I also appreciated that there was someone with few words. People use to talk a lot or expect me to talk and I would always need to wrack my brain to come up with something to please them. Never was I even once honest in a talk with someone not even my own mother.

She said he was called for help...

I wonder if he has a new mission to take care of or if he is just sick and tired of us already.

I bet on the second opinion and that he never wanted to have us here in the first place.

There is a higher chance the her ocommission told him to do so and he is only obeying them.

Well if that means we could roam around maybe I can get to the rooftop and just jump....

Maybe drown in a pool?

There surely must be a training hall for all the other heroes that are employed here!

Maybe something in the gym can kill me...

Something heavy and hard...

Tokoyami: Midoriya! Come on stop spacing out!

Me: Ah yes!

I was a bit lost into my own thought but thankfully Tokoyami snapped me out and I startes to follow them or more likely tag along. While my bird friend who wasn't really a friend but some I just like to call as such since I would forget calling him friend otherwise started and watched everything in awe, I was on a look out for dangerous atuff that could lead to my death pretty easily and you could sign it off as an accident.

Just thinking about the headlines was making me feel dizzy.

"Hero in training found dead in Hawks agency... Possible murder case or driven to suicide? "

Yeah nah!

There was really no way I could make Hawks go through something like this. He may have the hero commissions backing him up but that was for sure not something he would want to read.

Jean: And finally this is where you guys will be sleeping. Remember Hawks his apartment is right above you and if you need anything, please first try to contact me and not bother him.

After saying that to us she turned around and left us in front of wach of our rooms. We both had one on our own and didn't need to share at all. There was also no one besides us on the entire floor as it was only for trained person but no one was living here at all.

Me: We should get to unpacking our stuff. We are staying here for a week after all.

Tokoyami: Good idea.

If it was a good idea I don't know what I do know however is that all I wanted at that time was get in my own room and take the knife out to relieve some stress and feel alive.

I bet they are only letting us go until Hawks comes back.

After that it will be training with more training and training...

*Sigh* I am tired of this!

I just want to rest!