Here's what I realise about kids. Those who is being spoilt too much by their parents become "disrespectful".
Well at least that's my situation. My dad do not spoil me. He treats me the same as all his other kids and I love and appreciate him a lot. But with my mum. She chose me to be her "favourite" child. I hate it. I don't want to be the favourite child. Because then my other siblings would hate on me for that. She buys me all this stuff when I don't ask for it. I say thanks. Then later in the future she yells at me and use "I bought you everything" as an excuse to make me feel guilty only because I forgot to wash dishes.... Then if the other siblings sees me talking back, I'm now the most disrespectful person.
No
Personally, I get given a lot of thing when I did NOT ask for that... and yet they made me feel guilty because they don't. And my mother make me feel bad and feel like I've forced her to buy me stuff. Wrong. I didn't ask for this. I know she loves me, but whenever she did me wrong by many things, she gives me things or money as way of trying to "make" me forgive her but my other siblings just don't see that. They do not see the whole picture. Im constantly getting blamed on and being verbally abused but I can't speak. Or else I am "DISRESPECTFUL"
Now this makes me realise why kids nowadays are the way they are. No one believes us or our words. All they see is us being given the easy life...but they don't see us struggle too.
I mean now I just gotta feel guilty because I told my mother I didn't like when she said I act like a bad mother to my own child. Well sorry for speaking up. Should've just kept my mouth shut. That way I don't have my own siblings hating on me too. Sorry I'm such a spoiled brat sis. Sorry I wasn't the one who has been "abused" bro. Sorry I seemed like I had more money that you guys. I'm sorry.
I'm also sorry that you thought That she treats me different behind doors. I'm sorry you believed I'm her favourite. I'm sorry you didn't realise how manipulative she has been towards me. I'm sorry even when I'm an adult I still get talk down like I'm 12 meanwhile she's mature to you guys. I'm sorry that I let her use me to so she can get her ways because I'm the sensitive, fragile one in the family while she lets you guys be because she knows you all are too strong minded for her. Im sorry that I tried to stand up for myself but you thought I'm the bad guy in this situation. Im sorry I'm not smart or brave like you guys. Im sorry I'm not strong minded. Im soRry that I am way to sensitive that I cry when I get teased. Im sorry that I'm a fragile person. Im sorry for being like this. Im sorry for being who I am. Im sorry for being that disrespectful person you see me as. Im sorry mum for disrespecting you.
I'm so sorry
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Venting/life
RandomI write what I think I'm feeling. Just needed these in a permanent place. Ps...if I don't make sense in any of these, please forgive. These all takes like a minute to write and I don't bother re-reading to fix my mistakes.
