Every day I look at you, I smile, hoping that you'll finally say that you are proud of me.
But instead you would give me the meanest look of all and just put all the blame on me.
Mum, what did I ever do to deserve this?
Is it because I'm deaf?
Is it because I'm dumb?
Is it because I'm the youngest child?
Or is it just me in general?
I fight back because I've had enough.
But little do I know, it's only making the situation worse.
Sometimes we would argue and you would know that I'm right. The only I know is that you ALWAY bring other people into our argument to try and make me feel low.
I'm sad because of you.
I'm mad AT you
I'm annoyed with you
And most of, I have lost my respect in you.
To tell me in my face to "go to hell"and actually meant it, had offended me.
I mean who knew I would hear my own mother say that to my face.
Fuck it! You made me feel worthless, you made me lost confidence in myself, you made me feel like shit! You of all people had broke me down. I'm not that "happy, outgoing" girl that my friends thought I'll continue to be, Ive lost it all because of you.
Hope you are proud of yourself because once again, you had just lost another one of your OWN child.
7
IN
A
ROW
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You lost all of us. Now suck it up "mum"
YOU ARE READING
Venting/life
RandomI write what I think I'm feeling. Just needed these in a permanent place. Ps...if I don't make sense in any of these, please forgive. These all takes like a minute to write and I don't bother re-reading to fix my mistakes.
