Today I woke up and played Minecraft I only stopped thrice to eat and masturbate. And I've been absolutely miserable. I would think that I would be happy, because this is all I want to do; chill out play Minecraft... But I'm not. I'm really quite the opposite of happy and I found the reason is because I'm not working. I've come to the conclusion that happiness is not in the end, but rather than means of getting happiness is where true Joy lies. But this brings me to quite the dilemma, because it seems to me, at least right now that there is no joy in work and there is no true point in working because ends of all work it's less satisfying in the work itself. So if there is no joy in working what is the point of pursuing anything really. I've reached a sort of standstill where I don't really know what to do with my life because what is there to do. Where am I to look for Joy?
