Glued

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Kristin gave off a confused hum, "Wait-are you actually sick?" she asked concerningly as she placed her hand at Tommy's neck to feel his temperature.

"No-" Tommy admitted taking his mother's hand away from his neck, "I'm not actually sick, I just used it as an excuse."

"Excuse? Excuse for what?"

Tommy sighed, "-excuse for not going to the meet up with Ranboo and Tubbo." His voice got deeper, "I just- I don't know mum.. I feel so selfish for wanting Tubbo all to myself, I just don't want him to get closer with other people.. It's making me feel like our friendship is slowly getting torn apart.."

Kristin stood silent, willing to listen. She never saw Tommy this down before, she was deeply concerened. Tommy took the chance to continue with the unsettling silence as tears slowly rolled down from his face.

"Mother, I feel like I'm glued to him." Tommy continued as he stared blankly at his wall, his face looking emotionless along with his pale wet face with fresh tears dropping down from his face to his hands.

It felt like his tears were the raindrops and his hand was the surface, the more he cried the more heavier the rain got.

"Am I being a toxic friend when I just don't want our friendship to end? Am I being a bad friend to Tubbo for trying to prevent him from making closer friends with other people? Tell me mum, please.."

Kristin felt bad for what Tommy was feeling, even if she couldn't relate that much, she tried to comfort him still, keeping her role of being a good mother to Tommy.

She felt great sympathy for him. He looked so upset, she knows it's really serious because Tubbo and Tommy had been friends for so long, she watched them grow infront of her eyes together. She knows how close the two are, imagining how much pain and jealousy Tommy felt.

"Tommy-" Kristin got cut off as she reached for his shoulders and pulled him close, hugging him as she patted his back.

"Cry it all out Tommy." she comforted.

Tommy hesitated for a while, but eventually he accepted his mother's offer and rested his head on her shoulders. He's never done this in so long, he missed the time that every time he cries, his mother would give him a hug and pat his back, telling him to cry it all out on her shoulders. He remembered when he was a kid, he once got bullied by a bunch of middle schoolers. Of course Tommy felt down, he was just 8 at that time. He told his mother about it and let him cry on her shoulder, which brings Tommy to comfort.

I'm seeing not what I wish, to be achieving the old idea of me is..

"Tommy.." Kristin called as she let her hand run on Tommy's hair gently, "Don't overthink. No one is capable of knowing what's gonna happen in the future. Overthinking just makes it worse, if you keep thinking about the negative possibilities, then it's most likely to happen."

"But mum-"

"No buts." Kristin interrupted on purpose, "There is no reason for you to think of the negative causes."

"Mum I just wanna prepare myself for what's coming." Tommy argued, "If the time comes and the stuff I think that will happen actually happens, I won't be damaged that much. I pretty much expected for everything to happen. I just- don't wanna hurt myself. I don't want to make myself suffer from missing him when he's gone.."

Tommy quite frankly had a point, he just didn't want to hurt himself. He didn't wanna suffer from his own mistakes.

"Tommy, listen to your mother carefully." Kristin ordered, "No one can predict the future. Not even me, your dad, Wilbur, Techno, or even you. Everything that life delivers to us will always be a surprise that we'll soon know. If you're curious and want to know what the 'surprise' is, then do it as soon as you can, don't wait a little longer, do it if you're ready, and if you're confident to."