storyfell. Hell is life.

chapter 12: The feeling of losing someone you love.

Chara pov.
Here I am again. Listen to more of these humans words. There was a big fight. They said it was started by monsters. But I'm guessing they are just trying to shift the blame onto them ever since we left the underground. "Tell me. Are you sure that it the monster fault? Or are you just trying to shift thr blame onto them?" I can see the anger in his eyes. He points at me. Guy: "don't try to prove me wrong!! I saw what happen and it the monster fault!" *sigh* human really haven't changed. After awhile it finally ended. With the human to blame. I left the building. I grab a smoke. I light it up with fire magic. I looked up in the sky. How long has it been? 5 months? More? I lost count. I held her in my arms as she slowly left us. I can remember the tears falling down. I sat there crying my eyes out never wanting to stop. I would have stay there if it wasn't for mom. She got to us and saw the state I was in. I can remember the sadness in her eyes. I can remember her putting her arms around me to comfort me. I know what had to happen. I stand up still holding frisk body. I walk out of the underground. Looking at the sunlight. It been so many years since I seen it. It a loving feeling if I wasn't carry the die body of my lover. I than walk down the mountain. I went into the forest. I than found what I was looking for. A golden flower bed. I than placed her Body on the flower bed. I than took off my coat and place it around her body. I cried the last of my tears. Before I went I did my last promise that I will make peace with the humans. It what she wanted. With the help of toriel I was able to met with the mayor of the town I want to stay at with the monsters. I than became the ambassador of the monsters. This role is not for me. It for frisk. If she was here. I put the smoke in my mouth and started walking though town. Monster are enjoying there time with the humans. There human that are great friends of the monsters. But there are alot that doesn't like them. It makes me happy to see them happy. I just wish I spend it with frisk. Asriel: "hey Chara!" I looked to where that voice came from. I see asriel is running up to me. "Hey asriel! Longtime no see! How it been?" It been awhile the last time we seen each other. I think I been living with mom. Asriel: "I'm doing great! It so good to see you again!" I wonder why?  "Why? I'm not that big of a deal" he grab my hand. Asriel: "your family! Why shouldn't be a big deal!" He back to his old caring self. I must that part of him. I'm glad to back. "Anyway How are mom and dad?" We started walking. Asriel: "Mom has been busy with teachers work while dad is trying to get his mind back together" mom a teacher? I never knew she wanted to become one. A bit sorry for dad. I hope it works out. Asriel: "undyne is continuing her career with her girlfriend alphy" alphy? I don't think I heard of that name before. Wait. She undyne lover!? I never knew undyne was into girls. "What about that skeleton guy. Papyrus was his name right?" Asriel: "Yup! He open a restaurant! His food are great!" I dont know much about him but he was a prince years ago. he said he was in the ruins. He also the king brother. "What about the king?" I forgot all about him. Maybe it because he took the life of my girlfriend! Asriel: "I don't know. All mom said was that he still in the underground. He haven't left at all" Good. I'm going to pay him a visit. Maybe see how frisk body is doing. "Thanks asriel. It great to hear everyone doing ok" I grab the smoke and blow. I threw it on the ground and crush it. "Want to grab something to eat?" Asriel: "sorry but I'm need to go somewhere. It my new job" I nodded. He left as I waved. I than teleport to my place. I walk in. I live in my own place. Just away frome everyone. I don't want them to see the state I'm in. It a big place. There a kitchen, a lounge, a two bed room and bathrooms. Boogie is looking out the window. "Hey boogie" he look at me. I just know he in thr same state as me. Boogie: "hey Chara. How was your day?" He try to smile for me. I try too as well. We both understand each other pain. Losing someone we failed to protect. I grab him and sat down on the couch and place him on the table. "So far good. There was another meeting. A big fight. The guy there was trying to shift the blame to the monsters. It over now I hope" me and him try to just be happy. But deep down we are crying. Thr pain of losing frisk. It hurts. Frisk to boogie was a second chance at life. Boogie did something wrong but frisk was able to help him become what he is now. Since she die he hardly smile. Sometime he just staring out the window not saying a word. For me she was everything. Brave, smart, courage. She has everything that I don't. I wanted to live my life with her. I want to hold her in my arms again. Now she gone. All that left in me is a aching heart that belongs to her. Only her. We sat there silent. What the hell do I say? Boogie: "it alright. You don't have to say anything to try and cheer each other up" damn it he knew. "Sorry about that. I guess I'm bad at trying to be happy. When there is nothing to be happy about" I than feel tears coming out. Looks like boogie is about to cry as well. "Two minds think alike right" I laughed as I cried. I don't know how long it been. But it still hurts. Boogie: "It my fault she gone. If only I wasn't so blinded by being free that I would have save her!" Not again. "No boogie! Your not the only one to blame! If I wasn't distracted I would have tooking the hit!" I dont know how long we both try to blame our self. We always fight over who fault it is. It lasts for a while. "I wish she was here. I wish I could hold her again" I than feel boogie vine around me. Boogie: "I think we both should agree that it both of our fault instead. Right?" I think that that right call. I than grab boogie and hug him. We both treated each other bad because that how we get along. Now we can't even joke. Frisk has done so much that now we can't thank her. I placed him down and got up. Boogie: "going somewhere?" I got to the door. "I'm going to see frisk" boogie: "ok. I hope you will be ok" I nodded. I than walk of my place and shut the door. I than teleport to where I place frisk at. I walk though the forest. I still remember the way to where I left her. I see it. Am I really ready to see her? I dont know. I can feel my self shaking. Maybe I should have Bring boogie along. No. I need to see her. I need too. I breath in and out. I than walk to the flower bed where she is. I looked at it but her body is not there. Where is she!! I looked around. Did someone take her! I than looked at the ground and notice foot prints. I than followed them. They are leading somewhere. I keep following them. They lead to the underground? I continue following them. I can't believe I'm in this place again. I never want to come here. Not after what happen. I keep running. I than got to the throne room. I see San kneeling down near frisk body! I can feel the rage just by looking at him. I know I was planing to see him but not like this! He notice me. San: "Chara. Your here. Good" he stand up. What he up too? "Why is frisk body here!" Why the hell is it doing here of all places! San: "I know that your angry for me moving her. I thought this would be the place for her to be at. Where she will be save" like anyone would touch a dead girl body. But I guess it best for her to be here. I walk over to her body. She still looks OK. Just looking at her face. I can see the smile she had very she died. I sat down. "Hey sweetie. It been awhile. You look like your doing well. Me and boogie? Well we are doing fine so far" I feel like I'm going crazy. But she should know what going on. "The others are doing fine. Toriel is working as a teacher. Asgore is trying to fix him self. Asriel has a job. Undyne is continuing her career with her lover name alphy I think? Papyrus has open a restaurant. It been awhile the last time I seen them. I been busy being the ambassador of the monsters. A job that you should have" I laughed. For somereason I'm relax. Maybe it because I shouldn't be crying over it. "I haven't seen them since we left the underground. But I know they miss you too. You have change them. Made them back to who they were. If it wasn't for you. We would have been trapped trying to kill each other" I grab her hand. "I miss you. Boogie does too. We wish you are here. I want to hold you. Feel you. Hug you. Anything. I just want you back with me" I can feel tears in my eyes. San sat down next to me. San: "she would have done alot of good. If I didn't take Her life" so the tyrant has a change of heart. A bit later. "Why the hell do you care! She would have been alive if you weren't so self centered!" I can see thr sadness in his eyes. He means it. San: "I know. When I saw her after breaking the barrier I was angry. I didn't want to feel like everything I did was for nothing. But i should have stopped" I want to be mad at him but it would have been a waste of time. We sat there for awhile. I got to know San abit more. He even told me the truth of why he did this. Who ever Metacritic is was important to San. He than got up. San: "I'm leaving now. It was nice to meet you chara" I than watch him as he leaves. I'm just going to stay here and look at frisk for a bit. Everytime I look at her. I always think of how I failed to save her. She would have been alive if I focused. Alot of time has past. Now it nighttime. I know I have to go. "See you later frisk. I want you to know that all the time I spend with you. I'll never forget it. You are gone but my heart always be for you" I kiss her cheek. Than I left. I light up another smoke. I know you told me to quit. But let me have this. Just this once  I left the underground and began walking home. I know I should teleport but I feel like walking. I walk past buildings. Kids playing with monsters. Everyone smiling. It weird to see it. Not when you been though hell all your life.  I continue until I got to my place. I don't know what I should make for dinner. I just don't feel like cooking. I just feel like cutting my self. I walk inside. Boogie not at the window seal. Where is he? How can you lose a flower that in a flower pot and can't move. I may as well get it over with. I seach around for him. He not in the kitchen. Not in the lounge. Not in thr spare bed room. Where is he? I open the door to the bathroom. I see him on the sink. "How did you get here?" I mean. He can't move. Boogie: "vines remember?" He can used them to move
Around? That surprising. "Anyway I need to use the bathroom" I was about to grab him until he stop my hand. Boogie: "no Chara. I know what you a going to do" I looked at me. "What do you mean?" Boogie pull out a knife with a bit of blood on it. "How did you!?" Boogie: "you think I can't hear you screaming in pain as you hurt your self! Every night I had to listen to you cry and cut your self! To hear you wake up from nightmares!!" Wait. He was a wake? Damn it! "What the hell do you care! If you had a body you would have done the same!!" I counter back. Boogie: "your right! I would do that! Even as a flower I would do that! But what would frisk think if she saw us!" He has to say that! I punch the mirror cracking it. "She gone ok! She gone and we can't bring her back!" Now I'm crying again. Boogie is too. Boogie: "I know! I know! But we have to live on for her! If we die now how are we going to face her!" He right. He is so right. If I hurt my self and die what would frisk think? I don't want her to be angry with me. I pulled back my hand. No glass shards are in my hand. But the mirror is broken. "Let head to bed boogie" he nodded. I grab him and took him to my room. I place him on the drawer near my bed. I usually sleep with my clothes on. I climb in bed. Boogie: "we are both suffering. No matter how long we wanted it to go the memory of her will forever haunted. But as long as we have each other. We will be alright. I hope" he always try to make me feel better. I don't know if it works. "I hope so too. Night boogie" boogie: "night chara. I hope you don't have a nightmare again" I nodded. I looked at the roof. Will thing ever get better? We me and boogie ever be happy. I really hope so. I Haven't have a good sleep. Frisk. I wish you are here. I close my eyes. Hoping today ends.
"So sad"

Liquid: here you go. I know one of you was waitting for me to make a happy chapter. Just wait. Ok. Everything is going to be fine.
Ss chara: "this reminds me of the time you fuck with my story and made me watch everyone die"
Fell chara: "Jesus. That sound fuck up. Even for me"
Liquid: yeah. But he stab me with alot of knifes. You know I couldn't move for three chapters!
Ss chara: "good time"
Fell chara: "so who turn is it?"
Liquid: it shift Chara turn.
Ss chara: "thanks for reading! Hope you enjoy it. See you all next chapter. Peace!"