Is this the end? - Peter Parker

Part 30 ~ Stop

Another few weeks later:

Wanda was wondering why Peter and MJ are not meeting anymore. She got into the thing that probably MJ is at a competition or something far away. But she asked Peter.

Wanda: Hi Pete. I just wanted to ask why aren't you meeting with MJ anymore?
Peter: Uh- um. Be-cause

He had to come up with a lie but it took him long enough to be weird.

Peter: She's on- on a trip with the school. It takes about a month.
Wanda: Okayy? I seee.
*she looked with a confused face at him*

For Peter's fortune, Steve cut down the awkward situation.

Steve: Lunch is ready!

They all sat down at the table and ate. Of course, Peter was struggling to eat and the smell of the food instantly made him sick but he managed to eat some.

When they finished eating, he ran up to his room, grabbed his blade and he locked the bathroom door behind him. He threw up everything he ate. He rested his head on the edge of the toilet while thoughts took over him.

"Useless"
"Worthless"
"Do it"
"They don't love you"
"No one loves you"
"You're not needed"
"You're not enough"
"Stupid"
"You fucked up"
"It's all your fault"

He grabbed his blade for the 4th time today, he pulled up his sleeves and he dragged along the blade slowly on his skin. He went pretty deep this time, the cuts were stinging as the blood dripped down on his arm.

He never used bandages but he thought maybe it's time cause it didn't stop bleeding. When he was done he cleaned up the blood from the floor and went back into his room. He did that since the MJ thing happened.

Loki saw that he's acting weird so he finally went to talk with him. He knocked on his door.

Loki: Hey can I come in?
Peter: One moment.

He said as he wiped the tears away and he put on a clean sweater. Then he opened the door with a big smile on his face.

Peter: Come in.
Loki: I have just one question for you.
Peter: Okay.
Loki: Are you actually okay?
*he said worriedly*
Peter: Of course I am
*he laughed nervously*
Peter: I've been better since. I'm totally okay.
Loki: Okay.. Then show me your hand.
Peter: No.

He responded a little too fast. Panic immediately took over him again.

"He'll find out"
"He'll think you're weak"
"You can't show him"
"He can't see you like this"

Loki: Peter, it's okay. Just show me.
Peter: I don't want to.
*he said quietly*
Loki: You have to. Please.

Peter nodded while tears formed in his eyes, knowing that he has no other choice. He let Loki to pull up his sleeves, and seeing the blood-stained bandage.

Loki: Oh Pete. Oh no.

Peter was just looking down, and a choked-up sob came out his throat.

Peter: I'm sorry.
*he whispered*
Loki: Let me clean you up and then we'll talk.
*he said facing the door*
Peter: I'm af-afraid we can-can't do that.
Loki: Wha- Peter!
*he turned around*